kloetenrock

interview part 6

2011-08-01T22:30:00.002+02:00

please read what hide had to say about "image & color":

In private, the movies I like best are those with clean cuts. I have come to like movies that have a tasteful screen layout and are beautifully monochrome. I also like movies that are like a puzzle. These days, I like Sydney Sheldon a lot. That guy is a genius. I like the novels better but overseas they made movies out of them. I also like horror-movies. In the past I collected horror-movies. Splatter-movies are also ok. "Phenomena" I like but I love "Suspiria". [I saw the third part....it's all tities and witches ^^] These colors are so cool. In terms of horror "mein" is scary. Suspiria 1 is scary in a psychological way. When I watch horror-movies I think "this is not a ghost story at all" and then I am not scared. Suspiria 1 about bloodthirsty murderers of a religious group, when I think like that in an instant I am not frightened anymore but then I still get scared (laughs). The color and screen layout is cool and it seems like youget chased psychologically, so you'll get frightened. There are movies that scare you physiologically but this movie is psychologically scary. Until Middle-School I couldn't watch such movies at all. When I did I couldn't go to the toilet at night alone. (laugs) In High-School, I only watched horror-movies. With the same feeling like I listened to rock music I would ask my friends "hey, did you watch that one?". Later many rockbands wrote scores for horror-movies. Didn't Iron Maiden and Motörhead contribute songs to Phenomena? So like listening to rock music it was the same fanatic feeling.

I have no idea what kind of movie"mein" or mane/main/mayne is........ the other movies are by Dario Argento...one is called "Creepers" in America....I really had to laugh when I read the plot on wikipedia ^^

Pics

2011-07-31T22:43:00.005+02:00

I promised to upload pics that's why there are 2 posts today ^^ don't forget to scroll down to the first post if you want to read more of the interview ;)

when I bought the used ballad collection album this little merchandise leaflet was still inside...I want hide's glasses

I also scanned a few pics from the vanishing vision and blue blood albums...I wonder how yoshiki's hair stays in place.

I still loooooooooooooooooove hide-chan's hair in that picture with the snake

front page of shoxx 1991.....44 pages of hide...muhahahahahhahaha my precious

blue blood pic inside the cd booklet...

interview part 5

2011-07-31T20:16:00.002+02:00

another day and another interview part done. sometimes his sentences make my brain spin.....no wonder that I never understand him when he mumbles during interviews on tv. even the people of shoxx magazine made some mistakes with printing the kanji ^^

outside & inside:

My parents told me "since childhood you were a lion at home and a mouse abroad", surely it is like that? In the past I was a child who always had a school report card saying "you should speak more actively". Though when I came home I would scream and make a fuss. As an adult now I am not a person who is different from the inside on the outside. For that I have to drink alcohol (laughs). Now when I come home I am not in a rage anymore. If I did these kind of things now I would just be a lunatic (laughs). Only if I do something dim-witted at home, then of course this is another me.
By nature I cannot think about many different things at the same time. That's why I usually do foolish things. Other people often ask me "are you upset about something?" but it's just me being a little stupid. That's also why before going on stage the only thing I can think of is "playing a live show". On the contrary I can immerse myself into things. I can concentrate a lot on one task and if I don't, then I think about nothing. When I start then I concentrate a lot but before I start doing that it's bad. If I don't have a chance then I fool around. This is the meaning of inside and outside, that's why the gap is quite intense, I think.

justice & tenderness [giri & ninjô....refers to social obligation & feelings of compassion...the english translation of shoxx magazine is a bit odd]:

It is not to say that it's unusual. There is a social obligation and one's own feelings. The connection is of course Extasy [records]. Watching Yoshiki and George these words come up. No matter how often George gets beaten screaming "But Yoshiki...this is...." I feel it. That's why in my surrounding social obligation and one's own feelings means Yoshiki and George. Me? I don't feel this suits me.
Speaking about it when we drove back from a show in Osaka and it took 11 hours by bus. During that time I watched the 5 parts of "jigi naki tataki" [The Yakuza Papers - Battles Without Honor & Humanity]. I often go by myself to the video rental store and rent those kind of movies a lot. But the one I like most is "ore no sora", like the kind of Motomiya Hiroshi. This is a manga but like this kind of world. Social obligation and compassion is around me a lot but I am not this type of person. Of course this element exists but whenever I hear those words I think of Yoshiki's and George's face. Because they are people who repeat the world of giri and ninjô at the izakaya (laughs).

interview part 4

2011-07-30T22:53:00.002+02:00

hiho....I am still tired from yesterday's party at uni. I met a few people I had not seen in a while and we talked quite long so I came home sometime in the morning after a looooong day of work and then cooking yakisoba, okonomiyaki and baking matcha-cake for the party. before telling me hello sensei greeted me with a "did you bring okonomiyaki?" ^___^

anyway....I still managed to get 2 small pieces of interview translated...this time mr. matsumoto talks about "foreign country & japan" and "manly & womanly":

Speaking of Foreign countries, then the very first country that comes to my mind is America. In my hometown of Yokosuka there are a lot of foreigners and since I was young I have seen lot of drunk foreigners there and as a result I didn't like foreigners very much. Either one I disliked. But european music I liked a lot. Within myself the drunk foreigners of Yokosuka and Rock-music playing foreigners were two different things. Now at work I have the chance to meet foreigners who are experts. Being able to work with the foreigners of the world of rock that I looked up to in the past makes me very happy. Being inspired by many things, being quite impressed and getting motivation because of this. On the contrary working with this kind of foreigners I often get the feeling of "after all I am Japanese". One thing or another this absolutely is the Japanese spirit (laughs).

Of course womanliness is important, I think. But when my parents had been told such a thing they were in a rage. Everytime I put up posters with japanese bands wearing make-up, they would tear them down saying "take on more manly manners" and "take part in club activities and become more manly" so this kind of talk was very much to my dislike. When I see a woman however I unintentionally think about womanliness.
- Yeah, in front of women you feel their womanliness?
That is when the meal she cooks for you is delicious (laughs). Of course this is the best, I think. Feeling manliness is when the meal a woman cooks for you is delicious, I think (laughs). And there is probably nothing better than that.

I'll scan the page of the interview and post it when I have time ^^

interview part 3

2011-07-28T22:46:00.002+02:00

today will be very short and hide-chan is talking about "prodigy & genius":

My parents wanted me to become a talented student, so they gave me the name Hideto. As a result I have become a genius (laughs). Saying that...I am really stupid, ne. Among those people close to me, Yoshiki is a person who is a genius and a prodigy at the same time. Really, he is such a hardworking person...that's why. That kind of Rocker is quite unusual, I think.
You have to salute to this person's effort.
I haven't seen that kind person. When you realize that you have to succumb to something and then set your mind on working hard. Sometimes it turns into violence but it'll also settle down (laughs). No matter how high the wall before your eyes is, with the strength of one's efforts come what may. This way of thinking is that of a genius. Making a lot of effort is a prodigy. So maybe this talented student close by is this man.

shoxx vol.7 1991 part 2

2011-07-27T23:11:00.002+02:00

hiho, I have another part ready for posting....it has been a loooong day and so some sentences are strange but you'll get the overall thing....I hope. anyway this time hide-chan commented on the words "living & death" ...which is of course strange now that he is gone:

When I was a child I often thought about "dying" before I went to sleep. Now I don' really do that anymore. Nowadays it seems kinda cute but when I was young I used to have this dream quite often. I can still remember it clearly. My parents and me and some guy who looked like a devil were in that dream. We were standing at a high place and below us was a sea of fire, and we were told "one of you has to jump". At that time I thought "I will surely jump" and when I jumped the dream always ended. So as a child I thought "if my parents or relatives had to die then it is better that I die instead of them". I had been having this dream until elementary school and thought like that. I thought that "before people that I know have to die then I would rather die for them". When I got older I didn't have this dream anymore, so as an adult I have become quite egoistic, ne. I seem to have become a person who thinks "better not me". I don't like that. (laughs)
Now, recently I haven't felt death close to me but I have experienced the death of a friend as my former band's manager died. But still I didn't really know. It feels like "what is the difference?" when a dying person lies in front of you. Until now...no idea. Of course it is sad but already as a child they tell you that death is something very sad so of course it makes you sad. For me feeling sadness is something like "I don't want to experience this ever again". So like people going to another country....what is the difference? The real feeling hasn't come up yet, so I still don't know. Right now, it's vague and exaggerated, so I don't know and honestly I kind of don't want to think about it.

if you ask me....as a child hide-chan was a little strange in his head...am I wrong???

shoxx vol.7 1991

2011-07-26T23:13:00.002+02:00

I have decided that doing revision for my exam in japanese is far more interesting when I translate interviews ;) so I started on quite a looong interview (with pics it's 44pages loooong) but also one of the most interesting. so while I was reading it the first time I had to laugh so much at what he said when asked to comment on the words "blood, sweat and tears".

I don't sweat that much. That's why among those [words] the one I shed most is tears. I am such a crybaby. Blood- I also don't really shed since I am not a woman (laughs), and sweat- I also don't really sweat. When I play on stage there is also no sweat on my face, so the make-up doesn't come off. On the other hand, for the body this is quite alarming, right? If you wear tight fitting clothes then sweat cannot really come out of your skin, so inside it's like ascetic practice under a waterfall (laughs).
- What? No sweat on the face...isn't that a requirement for idols? [Wikipedia tells you what an idol is: (usually female) media personalities in their teens and early twenties who are considered particularly attractive and cute and who will, for a period ranging from several months to a few years, regularly appear in the mass media]
- Well, I am an idol from birth (laughs). Tears fall at several occasions. For example, watching a movie like "The Miracle of Marcelino" I have to cry. "An officer and a gentleman" for example also easily makes me cry. Watching a movie that is known to make you cry, I'll cry. During watching tv, I don't really cry. I am the type that cries during movies that have parts like a puzzle where the people who make those movies plan to make people cry. I don't really go to cinemas because if I'd watch that kind of movie at a cinema then I would surely cry. But I rent those tear-jerker movies on video and watch them at home and then breaking down in tears while watching it is ok (laughs). Even if hearing a story, when emotions overflow it doesn't even have to be very sad, tears will come to my eyes. That's why I cry often. Don't have to be really sad or happy reasons just when the tension is overbearing, tears will fall. During a live performance/ show also. But I don't like to be seen by people when I cry. In our band there are quite many members who cry easily. But with Pata I don't know. In his case his, maybe his lacrimal gland [Tränendrüse] is in his liver because even if deeply moved it seems only like a burp when being drunk (laughs). Me, Yoshiki and Taiji are cry-babies. Toshi also often cries on stage. We can't help it, we are a cry-baby band. Only Pata is stoic, manly, can handle lots of alcohol and is really a cool guy (laughs). But it's ok. All trendy guys cry often....maybe this is true (laughs).
About Blood.... well.... I hurt myself quite a lot. When I was young I often broke my bones. I fell down while rollerskating and broke my ankle. In my childhood I was sick quite often. I was often rushed to hospital because of gastritis. At that time, cars were also a no-go for me, not even 5 seconds I could ride in them. It wasn't the smell of gasoline but the smell of rubber. I was convinced that this was impossible for me and it seemed like the reason for the gastritis. I was told by my doctors "you'll be fine when you grow up" and now that I have become an adult it really has become better. But even today sometimes riding a taxi is my weak point. But those reasons seem entirely psychological.

so that was it for now ^^ I'll keep on translating......

ki no doku ni

2011-07-20T16:01:00.002+02:00

I knew something was wrong when yoshiki posted on twitter that something was "tsurai" but I was busy with getting ready for the wedding on saturday. the next day the word was already out that taiji had died. my fangirl-self would have understood the situation much better if it had been a severe illness at the age of 90 (as he suffered from epilepsy) or an accident but to hang yourself in your cell because you got arrested for disorderly behaviour on a plane -___- wtf????? was your brain that much out of order from years of alcohol abuse???? braindead indeed in the end when your family had to decide to switch off your life support. someone on twitter posted "god just needed bass lessons".....I hope hide-chan kicked your balls as soon as you arrived. And I feel sorry for yoshiki having to post another "people have to live"-message to the fans just like he had to do when hide left.
so being in a strange mood since then, yesterday I found myself in the bathroom...giving all my hide-chan keychains a bath ^^ yes I am officially crazy ;) I just couldn't bear to look at them being so dirty since they had been attached to my bag in japan 24/7. so they were all covered in all kinds of nasty things when I decided all of them need to be cleaned....now 7 of them are more or less clean again.
and to talk about more enjoyable things......the wedding ^____^ saby and franky finally got married at church last weekend and enola,fifi, nina and I were invited. our wedding present consisted of looooots of japanese food in an old suitcase....it was so heavy that 2 people had to carry it ^^ I got up at the ungodly hour of 7 a.m. to be on time in rottendorf to pick up fifi and enola....gave all the scrunchies that I don't need anymore to the little one, waited for nina and then drove to iphofen, parked the car and found the church without getting lost. enola was the one to carry the rings and she looked soooooooooooo cute in her dress. the ceremony was also nice with a choir and a really really really beautiful wedding dress.there were even white doves ^^ the only bad thing was that there were no single guys....every guy brought his wife or girlfriend -___- oh well we drowned our sorrow in cake ;) yummy cake...loooooooots of cake ^^ and dinner...more sweets and cheese at night. we left the wedding party around 1:30 a.m. and I arrived at home around 3a.m. and my strapless bra with straps was killing me....omg, it was sent from hell to punish me ;) but at least it kept everything in place.

send me dead flowers every morning

2011-07-14T17:10:00.005+02:00

...and I won't forget to put roses on your grave ;) yeees this song is stuck in my head and yes it's the gilby clarke and axl rose version. anyway...I'm still having a cold and it's all yoshiki's fault ;) aaaaaaaaaaaand my revenge will be turning into a scaaaary japanese ghost and haunt him,muhahahahahahah.
today was the first day in a loooooong time that I was truly bored, so I took stupid pics ^^
I'm still happy that my hair seems to like the indigo and henna mix....I know I should dye again but I don't have money for that right now. by the way I nailed the parzival exam with a 1,3 grade...hehehehhehe....only one exam left and theeeeeen...unemployment here I come ^^ oh well, I can still sell my vagina. on saturday I will attend the first wedding of any of my friends, so no sleeping in even though the cold makes me so darn tired. first I thought my shiny thyroid was messing with me again but it really seems to be the cold because my favourite new nucular^^ doctor told me everything will be fine if I take my happy pills ;) so far I lost almost 6 kilo and my clothes fit again. talking about clothes.....the only thing that makes me sad is that I had to throw away my kiss-vans....they didn't survive the trip to berlin and the base of the shoe fell off :( kinda sucks because I really liked them....on the other hand they were remnants of my last relationship.....sooooooo good riddance.
oh and before I forget it......the story about yoshiki kicking metallica out of the studio is true ^^ razorblade usagi-chan (who has to put up with my x japan fangirlism) was brave enough to ask james hetfield during a meet&greet about yoshiki ^______^ hehehehhehe, 20 years ago metallica were really pissed off by mr. hayashi.......................I almost peed myself laughing.
august 6th...kiddies will be coming from japan to meet their doom aka me ;) susi-sensei is baaaaack to take underage japanese girls and boys to a drinking binge aka cultural festival.........and gets paid for it ^^

WE CAME HERE FOR CURRYWURST

2011-07-06T13:01:00.003+02:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HVeS4XcNhbU

Finally....after years of waiting Yoshiki came to us....and what did he tell us? if you watch the youtube-video you'll find out ;) for those who don't want to watch it just one word: CURRYWURST...muhahahahahaha.
I still feel like every part of my body is not in its right place...my necks hurts and everything else too..........BUT.......this was the best concert I have ever been to. yes, thats my fangirl-heart speaking but also I have never ever seen a band so happy on stage. yeeeeees, I know it's their job and yeeees they get money for it but in my opinion they were sincerely happy to be there. but now in all details from the start ;)
on sunday I took the train to munich and met with caro....a few screams of "wir fahren zum yoshiggi" later we went to Tollwood festival, walked around and proceeded to find food. we decided on fried bread with onions, green pepper, feta-cheese and tomatoes. while occasional rainshowers came and went we stayed a little longer and had coffee with chocolate cake. later we met up with caro's sister and drove home. we spent the evening eating,watching X Japan videos and packing for the journey to berlin. the night was short and after getting ready in warp-speed we were on our way to munich airport. of course security had to take my rexona deo away -____- and chose me to be the lucky person to be searched and ummmm fondled ;) yes of course I look like a terrorist ^^ the flight itself was nice and short but rain greeted us when we landed......nyaaa, it sucked. wet and with frizzy hair we found our way to the hotel only to be told check-in at 3p.m., so we left your luggage there and went to the city in search of....FOOOOD ^^
we got lost and found posters announcing X's concert and then finally found a nice japanese restaurant. we ate maguro don which was sooooooooo good and then went to a nice little japanese cafe where we drank yummy matcha latte. a few moments of sightseeing and it was already time to head back to the hotel. the room was ok and we got ready for the concert. on our way to columbia hall we already saw all kinds of ugly dressed people and couldn't keep our mouths shut....so it started to rain. the public toilet we killed some years ago was still broken so we paid a restaurant owner to pee in his oh so sexy toilet. on front of the concert hall we met 2 girls who fortunately had an umbrella-ella-ella-ella because the rain wouldn't stop for a while. while talking about all the ugly people around us we got filmed by the official video crew -__- as always. when the doors opened we pushed our way forward and loooooo and behold we where inside in no time. we positioned ourselves on the left side of the stage so we could see pata and heath. again we were surrounded by idiots because a group of ugly indonesian-thai-whatever-people was in front of us and started to push all their friends in front of us. aggression-level of our fangirl-self rose to new heights. they started to take pics of themselves, still carrying their big bagbacks and being a pain in the ass. from behind some 1,90m asshole started to push his girlfriend and himself to the front but at that point I was already behind reason ;) when the concert started yoshiki came out first and it felt so surreal to me.......omg he is so skinny and omg I can see his nipples and omg he isn't even so far away from us. after he took the time to pose like the lovely lord of ummmm feminine things that he is while everybody took pics. then the rest of the band came in ^_____^ lots of screaming , lots of singing and looooots of having a push-fight with the guy behind me and in front of me. my fangirl-ego needed space so I won the first fight with the guy behind me. now I had to get rid of the ugly fat bastard in front of me who never moved and just took pictures. when a tiny pogo pit formed I got slammed to the front and used my big all and pointy ellbows to get past fat asshole guy. I have never felt better in my life ;)
from then on I was happy.....toshi came over and grinned at us several times and when I think about it I know why he grinned....because I was standing there in almost nothing but my bra since my shirt showed much more cleavage from all the pushing and yanking earlier. pata came also over grinned at us ^^ then yoshiki gave his infamous currywurst speech and if you watch the video above at 2:23 you can hear me scream HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIDEEEEEEE. the whole audience sang "endless rain" and "forever love" and the band just listened and yeees everyone cried. I had asked yoshiki on twitter if he would bring hide-chan with him and he promised to do so ^^ he kept his promise. they had a little hide-doll sitting in the corner of the stage throughout the concert. after a few encores it was over and toshi tried to throw his waterbottle to us buuuuuuuut of course we didn't catch it -___- sugizo took pics of the audience and the band...it took almost 10 minutes until they finally walked off the stage.
we fought our way to the merchandise booth and got t-shirts and then bought something to drink. later we went to bahnhof zoo mcdonalds and fangirled a bit more.......then took several night busses to the hotel. I have never ever hurt so much in my life the next morning. my voice was so bad that when I got a phonecall on my cellphone the person didn't recognize my voice. after getting ready and creating a mess in the hotel room we went out and found another nice japanese restaurant. we ate loooots of sushi and then went to the airport. back in munich I took another train and finally arrived home.
I hope they come back soon for another tour!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WE ARE X......and ummm curry-fucking-wurst ;)

tsumaranai yomimono

2011-06-02T17:06:00.002+02:00

hisashiburi ^^ and again I am already in panic since the next oral exam lies ahead. my professor changed the date from June 30th to July 7th and then to June 16th -_____- makes me lose so much time to study,gnaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh....it sucks. anyway I passed my english exam with 1,0 as a grade, muhahahahaha. I wish the next exam will be like this.
I also survived our "japan-week" at university, organizing a movie night and then serving food at the final party.
ju-chan visited me and got me this pendant for my birthday ^_______^ I looooove it.
and now.......back to parzival and his uncle with a not working penis ;) middlehighgerman pooooorn........at least that way reading is more fun.

gnaaaaah

2011-04-28T16:57:00.003+02:00

once again I look like a junkie because I got my blood examined...got the results today and it turns out my thyroid is fucked up. so they did an ultrasonic exam of my throat and told me that my thyroid is smaller than usual and that there are irregularities but no knots (yay, i'm not just fat from eating ^^)...........I was told that I need to take iodine pills now before they make me take strange hormones.

that's what you get from living next to a nuclear power plant for 4948574893574389 years

aaaaaaaaand we, the x japan fangirlies, have decided how to get to the concert..........BY PLANE! yes....plane......we fly to berlin, muhahahahaha....gone are the days where we would travel by train for 10 hours and then sleep at the station next to the homeless after the concert ^^

beware the beast in black ;)

2011-04-24T19:00:00.002+02:00

hehehehehe...helloooo.....let me greet you with a sexy pete steele being a gaylord from hell of doom ^___^
it has been a while...yes I know and lots of stuff has happened. I survived my written exam even though the universtiy administration played a joke on me aka "oh we forgot that you didn't have to write that exam" but so far everything is ok. my next exam is on May 11th (english literature) followed by an exam on July 7th (middlehighgerman which sucks a lot) and finally September 12th (japanese).
and then something happened that I never thought would happen in a million years ;) we have tickets to a concert of.....................X JAPAN.....yeeeeees, they finally found out where europe is :P and play a live show in berlin on July 4th.......my second exam was actually scheduled to be on June 30th but then they changed the date to July 7th...but I don't give a fuck about that now.....of course it makes me a little uneasy because I lose 2 days of studying but.... OMG!X JAPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my fangirl-heart is stronger,hehehe. when yoshiki announced the tour on twitter I wrote a message to him and now he follows me on twitter.....it's funny because I ummmmm......now have to watch what I write to usagi-chan about gaylords ;)
mr.anaconda is also still alive and I even talked to him last week..........I really do miss the arsch from time to time ^^
the müllmann-guy also called again and was surprised that he is still not getting pussy

I'll just get married to yoshiki on twitter ;) or he sues me for my tweets ^______^

everybody is dancing at the gates of valhalla

2011-03-20T22:35:00.003+01:00

I will not comment on what has happened in Japan. I have talked with my japanese friends.They are all alive and well telling me that kansai is still more or less safe. We will see how everything turns out and my thoughts are with everyone there.
What really got on my nerves these days are people asking me "sooo what do you say about Japan? why are the people there acting so differently? why is there no panic? you will never go to Japan again, right?".................please people stop pretending like you give a shit about it just because you were forced to watch it on every news channel -___- I have a feeling that most people don't care about the suffering Japanese but just about their own ass like "omg, radiactive stuff will come into my bedroom and suprise sex me now if I don't feign sympathy". Sorry for the rant.....still pms and nowhere to run ;)

beside all that I am constantly torn between "ok, I can do this and write them 85405843 pages during the 3 hours of my exams" and "I know nothing, I am stupid, I hate myself for being stupid, why oh why did I enroll in those classes"...............oh well....the last written exams of my life ;) March 30th and April 1st

and then I tried braiding a little bit more.....now I can braid X to O ^____^ which means braids that cross....I took pics of my very first try:

yes I know it looks like I have no hair ;) I just couldn't get the strands to be neatly in order but it's kinda hard to braid without seeing anything ^^

I can pretend to be jabba disguised as princess leia ;)

I like that the color of the henna has not faded that much ^^

food porn

2011-03-09T14:30:00.002+01:00

omg, freddie singing in perfect japanese that he loves instant noodles ^___^

the other commercial is actually just funny with the sound on....because umm....well....if you have a dirty mind ;)

hell yeah

2011-03-07T21:53:00.002+01:00

I finally was able to hand in my thesis today. cost me 67Euro to print and wrap it into some shape that my uni wanted -___- oh well, at least I get some sleep today ^^ the last 2 weeks I have lived the life of a hermit.....I left the house only 2 times in these 2 weeks. I'm sorry for not responding properly to most phone calls or messages. craziness will continue until April 1 st at 12 o' clock....then I will have finished my written exams. then I breath a sigh of relief only to start searching for professors who will do the oral exams.....and theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen....muahhaahhaa......forever freeeeeeee ^^

~intermission~

2011-02-20T19:50:00.002+01:00

in the middle of preparing for my finals..........scared shitless by the way ;) I took some time off to wander aimlessly through the internet. look what I found.... METALSLUDGE and their penis chart. it had me laughing for 20 minutes straight ^___^ and for those you don't want to click the link I'll just copy a few infos from that chart:
Phil Anselmo / Pantera Well after a short glimpse of that MONSTER power tool in their debut home video it's no wonder that Rob Halford is such a big Pantera fan! Reports are Phil is a bit over 10 inches!! There are also rumors that Phil can swing both ways, at least orally.

Tom Araya / SlayerIf you're down with pentagrams and Satan, then not only is Tom for you, but he's got a big cock to boot. Tom is about 7 inches, loves to fuck and is not selfish at all! Also has an uncircumcised dick.

Sebastian Bach Bach can deliver the good, as most skinny, tall guys can. He has been seen with a variety of groupies out on the road and reports are that he doesn't shower much. He does have an above average cock and can be a lot of fun, but is ego is totally out of line and out of control. Is known to be a very big asshole, so be careful.

Jon Bon Jovi / Bon Jovi Back in the day Jon was a huge slut but he's chilled out a little. Jon has an average size cock and like a lot of guys prefers to receive oral than give it. He has good rhythm though and will even wear 2 condoms if you ask him to.

Zack De La Rocha / Ex-Rage Against The Machine Now he is excellent in bed, though he has really ugly, curly-haired crotch and balls, but his oral and finger skills make the hair ordeal worth it. Cock is about eight inches in length, about seven in girth. Loves doggy more than any other position, and seems to be obsessed with playing with a girl's hair. Has a thing for olive skin and dark hair ... overall, solid 9, and he takes care of you after the fact.

Dave Mustaine / Megadeth Dave is of average size and is very romantic, at least until he is done. Likes to cuddle, but might not be so friendly in the morning.

Trent Reznor / Nine Inch Nails On a scale of one to 10, Trent is an 8. An average size dick, but a good fuck. He'll fuck you like an animal. He loves dildos, candles, hot wax, blindfoldes, etc.

Lars Ulrich / Metallica Lars is about 6 inches and has a HOODED MONK, meaning he's uncircumcised! That's to be expected because he was born in Denmark, or some foreign country like that. He's a quick shooter and likes multiple girls. He's also fond of blow (what a shock) and that might result in his MONK to not wanting to come out and play. And he constantly talks. Shut the fuck up already! Also he's losing his hair, but that's another chart.

yeeeeeeeees, of course I know it's what 16 year old girls giggle about ;) but the whole groupie website was very entertaining to read ^_____^

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

2011-01-29T14:52:00.003+01:00

so ok, my hair looks nasty on the picture...I know that ^^ after I put shitloads of indigo into it it's as dry as a fart ;) and I slept on them without braiding so it was a tangled mass of knots and little henna crumbles (I was afraid that it would turn green so I used henna with the indigo). but I loooooooooooooooooooooooooove the color.it's almost black and chocolate brown in sunlight. I hope it won't fade that fast....I don't want to go through the whole procedure every week o_O

but honey pie you're not safe here

2011-01-24T19:46:00.002+01:00

Ju-chan visited me last saturday and I got another christmas present ^^ japanese strawberry latte aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand finally my very first calorimetry. I suck at knitting so Ju-chan asked her friend to do it for me ^_______^ and I could choose the button ;)
I can haz cute. anyway, I never thought that these things keep really that warm....I wore it at work (outside) and had to take it off after a while because I started to sweat ^^ yeah I know it looks strange on the picture but actually if you wear it, it just looks like a beanie in the front.

and then...I had an encounter of the 94574936th kind on the phone. with someone I never would have imagined to call me. and no it was not a penis ^^ I felt like I was taking part in some shiny soap opera....or how would you feel when someone calls you to ask if you slept with their baby's daddy?discussing my private life with a total stranger.....oh what fun. surprisingly it turned out to be a nice conversation but I'd rather not have phone calls from any girlfriends of guys that I've met. I mean I could understand the reason why she called and I feel so much better because I listened to this little voice inside my head to run from him as fast as I could but I hope I won't receive calls like this in the future. the only thing is I feel so bad for the children involved, having to witness all the shit that adults pile up. I never ever wanted to be part of their personal struggle, I realized too late that I got sucked into it -___- but now I guess the whole thing is settled...at least between me and them.

getting married to mr. anaconda doesn't sound so bad at the moment ;) at least I know what to expect from him,muhahahaha

should have kept my mouth shut

2011-01-16T14:20:00.003+01:00

ate too much at the annual new year's party from work -___- even though I just ate rice, vegetables and fish ,I think the warm chocolate cake with liquid dough inside kind of killed my insides -____- so I spend the whole saturday in the bathroom hugging the toilet in various positions.

a few days ago I tried to take another pic of the hair of doom since I realized that the volume of hair on my head has decreased -___- anyway I decided not to cut it even though the ends look like shit and there are these strange shorter strands buuuuuuuuuuut since I almost never wear them down and always in a bun nobody will see. when I finally reach 100cm then I'll start the microtrims, muhahahahahahaha...if I am lucky I'll reach 100cm by the end of this year ^^

I need c-c-c-c-c-coke

2011-01-14T13:06:00.002+01:00

I am back after a nasty viral infection of my throat/sinuses from hell of doom and I still feel sleepy so I need massive amounts of coca cola to keep me going. anyway the hole virus thingy was that bad that sensei decided to prolong the deadline for my final thesis for 4 weeks. so when I learned that I have a little bit of time left I decided to get on the nerves of the harvard art museum. I think they hate me ;) I only recently found out that they keep a handscroll that is very similar to the one I worked on....sooooo I can haz images please? I'm currently negotiating with their copyrights-guy in charge because as you know nothing is for free in this world and they don't believe me that I need them for study purposes -___- it's great to fill out that image request form "name of artist? unknown; date? unknown; owner? unknown" ^^
what else happened? oh yeah, after I decided to not waste time of penises anymore.....a new penis came along. well, I actually only played along since he wasn't ugly, 1,82m with a slight fat fetish and really really really nice hair and of spanish descent. but as always he told me about oh so truuuue love and a few weeks later it suddenly wasn't true love anymore because we live soooooo far apart ;) yeah right......after he showed me his account on a fuck-me-tonight-website (telling me he created an account there to find a girl for a serious relationship)......I wonder if he really thought I am THAT stupid????? oh well, didn't bother to contact him after that ^^
aaaaaaaaaaaaaand I have a new addiction ^____________^ stuff from heymountain cosmetics......omg I LOVE their face masks, skin conditioners, hair masks, bodylotions, shower gels.......so far I tested the following products:

in the hair tonight conditioning cream --> my scalp loves it as a prewash conditioner (and the cream is pink, yay)
blackberry facemask --> ok, so I scared the jehova's witnesses at the door when I applied it to my face but it makes my nasty pores look better
chocolate cream soap --> I always have to resist the urge to take a huge bite from it and it makes the skin sooo nice and soft

feels good skin conditioner --> more chocolate and you can apply it in the shower....I found out that it helps to prevent those red spots after shavin down between ;)

then I got some goodies for free from the nice people of heymountain cosmetics ^___^

strawberry cream body lotion --> I'll order it next time because together with all the chocolate stuff I smell like jogurette when I put it on
happy face cream --> a little too oily for my already oily face
vanilla queen shower shampoo --> I loooooove the scent....but I use it only as body soap since it makes my henna bleed out
sansibar massage bar --> used it on my hands and it helped my skin
mitten ins gesicht face cleanser --> gets rid of my nasty silicone make up
lulu bathtab --> has rose petals in it ^^
piece of chocolate cream soap (in my first order)

do I really want my mtv?

2011-01-01T14:54:00.002+01:00

nope, actually I don't want it anymore ^^ at about 3a.m. this morning mtv went off the network to be a pay tv channel. one of the last videos shown was rage against the machine "killing in the name of" ....it reminded me of the times when mtv was still cool and I stayed up late only to watch ray cokes on most wanted...when there was just mtv europe and not stupid mtv germany ....no pregnant teenagers and no strange jersey shore people where you get genital herpes just from watching the show.
this new year's resolution? to let things go more easily and saying good riddance to things without feeling guilty and without forever trying to live in the past ^___^ everything will be ok eventually....just takes a little longer sometimes.
our little new year's party was nice.lots of food and lots of fun and lots of x-mas presents ^^ the only thing that bothers me is that I start the new year with a new cold coming.....well, actually this morning my nose was already blocked with snot. now I know why keeping focused on writing was hard for the past 2 days.....ain't life grand? ;)

this is not the greatest and best final thesis....this is a tribute ;)

2010-12-27T21:01:00.002+01:00

why oh why does my university's library suck so badly? and I can't even order those 2 books I need because they are fucking closed until january......................I FART IN YOUR GENERAL DIRECTION!!!!!! even more fail....google books uploaded those books but guess what? the pages I need are not shown. oh well, if I keep up my pace everything is ok ^^ getting up at ungodly hours, slurping down müsli, pretending that I care a rat's ass about buddhist icons for 584054830485043hours, eating something in between and then feel braindead at night ^^ but hey finally graduation is in sight aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand I bought chocolate soap..........es reibt sich mit der lotion ein ;)

wooooooooohooooo

2010-12-21T20:32:00.002+01:00

went to sensei's counselling hour today to get my ass beaten but then it turned out that he liked what I wrote so far aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand he told me if I don't fuck this thesis up there is a chance that it will be published ^^

lalalala...under pressure *sing*

sanity restored ^^

2010-12-19T15:15:00.002+01:00

omg.....I finally have proof that I'm not that much of an emotionally crippled old hag ^^ it's just a 66th sense when it comes to certain things and when I look back it never failed me....I just need to listen to it more often.
it's still a few days until christmas...but lo and behold I already have all christmas presents for everyone ^^ usually I'm always running late for presents but this time it was ok.
anyway, I didn't wash my hair for 2 days now and it's so oily that it almost looks like it is wet -__- I hate winter....since it looks already horrible and I don't go anywhere I put lots of shea butter and jojoba oil in my hair. my scalp finally stopped being itchy and the skin on my hands feels nice and smooth. yay, for the first time with freezing temperatures outside and no burning red hands from the cold.

muhahahaa Gedicht

2010-12-16T21:18:00.003+01:00

I was fooling around the internet....oh what a surprise and I came across this poem generator ^^
you just need to feed the generator a name, verb, adjective and a noun......so I dedided to fill in hide, brushing (hair), pink and hair and this came out: (isn't it creepy that it suddenly included death and angels? ^^)

pinke Haaren

über griffigem Ferkel

blasse Tode
an den Pegel

blasse Engel
kämmen vorbei

Hide
und das Motorengeheul

and even more creepy......I did another one with fat, susi, cold and hanging around:

Fett

Zwar kalt doch aggressiv.
Sie gammeln,
Sie grübeln,
Und matschen den Zopf.
So kalte Fett!
Und Zöpfe
Zu aggressiv und Susi ist wohl schuld!

(what does this generator know about my braids?????? ^^)

it reminds me of an exboyfriend.......*evilgrin*.....dünkelheit

key of awesome

2010-12-16T12:55:00.002+01:00

muhahahahhaa......kitteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehs ^^ could be me in that song ;) this guy has a ton of funny videos and of course I had to watch them all

rapante

2010-12-14T14:21:00.004+01:00

nyaaaaaaaaa.......I was playing around with our old digi-cam and tried to take a pic of my hair. I had them in a braided bun at work so that's why they are wavy and I didn't brush them before I took the pic. there are still some stupid layers on the sides and it looks like I really need to cut the last 3 cm ................................aaaaaaaaaaaand they are so thin down there -__-

oh well.....better to have thin hair than no hair, right? ^^

bla

2010-12-13T13:59:00.004+01:00

on saturday I met with Ju-chan in erfurt and we went shopping.the trains were so crowded with drunk guys and of course 5 of them had to stand next to me.......one of them always farting silent and deadly farts in my direction.I wanted to strangle them ^^
of course we didn't find any shoes for the wedding but we found some new t-shirts and panties ^^ and we are gyouza...omnomnomnomnom.
and I got this bracelet as a x-mas present from ju-chan ^___________^
it was quite crowded in the city center but it was nice to get out for a while again.......................yesterday nina came over and we wanted to play dungeon keeper but of course it doesn't work on shitty arsch windows 7 so we watched zombies of mass destruction instead.

out of some sentimental gain

2010-12-10T19:28:00.003+01:00

dear internet,
I am so glad that I spent my entire puberty offline and never had the chance to share my fangirlism with the world wide web when I was in my early teens. why? well, here is why:

I was watching sat. 1 frühstücksfernsehen from hell of doom while blow drying my hair this morning and there they were.....take that ^^ the looooooooves of my life when I was 11 years old until they cut their hair ;) so while I was watching them talk about reunion and stuff I remembered the times when I would spend hours watching their videos, listening to their cds over and over again, singing along to the songs (and let's face it they sucked) and buying overpriced merchandise (I still own a take that- alarm clock -__-) aaaaaaaaaaand of course writing into my diary how unfair it is that my mom wouldn't let me go to a concert with little take that-hearts scribbled all over the page. I felt embarrassed ;) and I know if I had had internet access in '93/94 the internet would have been plastered with pink glittery "I love take that"-messages ;) and to give you and idea how bad the take that mania was......here is a picture of me in my room around 1994:the misery....let me show you it ^_____^ and I bet that if twilight had existed during that time I would have loved it also -____-

umm, I have to admit that I like robbie's and gary's duet ^^ but that's as far as my love for take that goes nowadays.......

I hatez the winter

2010-12-07T13:35:00.003+01:00

soooo...last night was the first night with almost no coughing.....yay for tons of antibiotics that I took since last week. now I hope I can start working longer on my thesis because even though I was working on it every day I felt completely drained after 2 hours.....I couldn't even count the syllables of the tanka right (and you only have to count to 7) from the picture scroll.
and I kind of want to rip the guy (who lives in the apartment below ours) 's balls out for going to work all day and leaving his windows all wide open -____- helloooooooooooo? it's freezing outside and this guy acts like we have summer and 45°C......my floor is cold and even with the heating turned on it's barely over 20°C here. at least I have my big orange fuzzy blanket to keep me warm. cold feet are no fun at all.
after almost 2 weeks of seclusion from the outside world besides work I will be meeting Ju-chan this weekend and we'll go shopping for shoes because she has not found any that match her wedding dress yet.
I'll make myself some tea now............I just read usagi chan's blog of doom so it reminded me that I wanted to write about why hide was laughing his ass off in heaven when he saw what this shiny X Japan reunion has turned into. Since Princess Yoshiki still can't read a worldmap and just kept bullshitting about a live show in germany I pretty much stopped following their news because it was just too sad....but a few days ago I stumbled upon their north american tour stuff.

meanwhile in Yoshiki's brain:

ok, so I still love X Japan but.....omg.....this is baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. the song, the video, the outfits.....it makes bunny cry !!!!!!!

thanks Yoshiki for ruining kurenai -____- worst video of all time and what was wrong with the old version???? kurenai has to have toshi screaming his lungs out and not sugizo playing the violin for 458045894 years. but seriously....who on crack directed this video????? and who was all "oh that's a great idea" when Yoshiki came and said "I want to wear a blond wig and be a vampire tranny" ?????

oh and the short bit about kicking metallica out of the studio:

it's at about 5:37

kowai....honma ni

2010-12-01T19:10:00.003+01:00

so.....since I am being a good girl working on my thesis on a daily basis.....yeeeees, za thesis from hell of doom is on the way ^^......I rewarded myself with a little bit of horror ;) and since someone was so nice as to upload several j-horror movies on youtube, I watched kowai onna and noroi.
kowai onna (by the way this is the chinese movie poster) I knew already from japan but never got the chance to watch it there at the cinema.it consists of 3 half hour movies and the first one has this nice lady who you can see on the pics and oooh she is pissed of big time ;) I won't spoil the story but I tell you it's scary.yeah, I know some of you will not find it scary at all but just the mere katakata (rattle)- sounds the demon makes are enough to hide behind my blanket.

I found noroi by accident on youtube and just gave it a try and was not disappointed. it's a mockumentary but faaaaar better done than blair witch project. anyone who has ever walked around a shrine at night in japan will be scared especially when the movie's tag line is "minna shinda" (everyone died).the whole atmosphere of the movie is creepy and I love the actors. I knew some of them already from japanese tv and I swear I have never ever seen someone play a psychic guy wrapped in aluminium foil afraid of space worms that well when the actual movie has nothing to do with space worms at all ;)
so if you like mystery stories about shinto rites gone wrong and demons out to get your ass theeeeeeeeeeeeeen you should take the time and give the movie a try ^^

if you don't like my point of view then maybe you're not sane ^^

2010-11-28T15:05:00.003+01:00

yeah but no but yeah but no but yeah.....oh shut up *vicky pollard mode*.....so, finally za hormones settled, sitting here with my pain killer happy pills and so what for not being able to interact normally with men, so what for being stuck here for another 6 months, so what for having caught another cold.........how about just not giving a fuck ^^ at least now I don't waste so much time on the intrawebz-I'm-a-pathetic-single-website and work on the thesis from hell of doom.

aaaaaaaaaaand I can haz post about blind melon lyrics.....just because I can ;)

I don't feel the sun's comin' out today
It's staying in, it's gonna find another way, yeah, hey
As I sit here in this misery
I don't think I'll ever no long' see the sun from here

And, oh, as I fade away
They'll all look at me and say and they'll say
"Hey, look at him", I'll never live that way
And that's okay, they're just afraid to change

Ah, when you feel life ain't worth living
You've got to stand up and take a look around
You look up way to the sky
Hey and when your deepest thoughts are broken
Keep on dreaming boy, 'cause when you stop dreamin' it's time to die

And as we all play parts of tomorrow, oh, no, no
Some ways we'll work, in other ways we'll play, yeah, yeah
But I know we can't all stay here forever, oh
So I want to write my words on the face of today
And then they'll paint it up

And, oh, as I fade away, yeah
They'll all look at me and say, they'll say
"Hey, look at him and where he is these days"
When life is hard, you have to change
When life is hard, you have to change

universe....why you hatez me so much?

2010-11-26T21:04:00.001+01:00

all the single ladies....all the single ladies..........who dropped a full box of xmas cookies on the carpet, making a huge mess on the floor....now put your hands up *puts hand up*

trololololololooooo

2010-11-25T16:49:00.002+01:00

hmmmmmmmm........my period....oh how I wants it ^^ za hormones...please to make them go away and I can feel the next cold coming. speaking of cold.....I am freezing.I'm wearing 2 pairs of socks, a tank top, a long sleeved shirt, iron maiden bruce band shirt and a hoodie.....and still I feel frigging cold....wtf???? the heating is turned on (a lot) and still I can see my nipples o_O (no, I'm in no way "excited") I hate winter and maybe I should get those hormones checked -___-
ummm...what else...I got x-mas cookies from my aunt and za mom of doom also made some....yay for even more fat that I will shove down my throat.^^
ju-chan wrote me that her penis didn't get a visa, so za marriage from hell of doom will have to be postponed....

pathetic post is....pathetic

2010-11-24T20:35:00.002+01:00

I know I should just get my fat ass going and change all the things that make me feel bad but of course I'm too lazy/stupid etc. and if I would read my blog as a stranger I would think "omg what a stupid whiny bitch".....but I am I and I need to vent again.
so the whole thing about the guy and me and how I behaved still haunts me and of course I had nothing better to do than writing him an email about how I need to explain myself and ummm....I don't think that was such a great idea because when I re-read it, it basically says "I feel so bad and you made me suffer".Which he actually didn't really do because it was my decision to play along and unfortunately he just pushed some buttons that made me go bonkers.I'm a little bit glad that he hasn't read the mail yet. I'm going round in circles and it seems like I can never really explain what is going on in my head. I have become this strange gollum-like creature (just with more fat)....or I'd be a perfect jabba ^^. the best thing would have been to talk to him in person about everything, just to hear his point of view but why should he give a fuck....and I probably would just sit there and cry after 2 seconds.nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....I hate this situation.
at least I henna-ed my hair again so all the white hair has disappeared.my split ends are horribly dry and I bought jojoba oil.I was thinking about cutting 3 cm but then decided to just let it grow and then start cutting.by the way, I was calculating.....my hair down at the ends is almost 7 years old o_O
and my mom has to use a cellphone now at work............guess who had to explain to her how it works....................

waaah

2010-11-19T21:48:00.002+01:00

I'm still sad but............something just made me smile ^^ google street view of ame mura in osaka.......omg, I just walked around big step and sankaku park and it felt like home ^^ some shops have disappeared but some are still there and oooooooooooooooooooh it feels sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good to be there (at least a little bit).

ooh the fail

2010-11-18T14:00:00.002+01:00

so coughing my way through monday night and not sleeping I called in sick for work on tuesday morning. my lungs and throat hurt like hell.....yay for tea and cräck.wednesday,still coughing and sneezing I hauled my ass from work to university and did a 3 hour research through the library for material and getting all of it copied, cutting my finger rather badly on a piece of paper. I ended up with a huge box of books and essays......oh the fun of writing a bibliography which I'm going to do over the weekend. in 2 weeks I have to meet up with sensei and show him my "progress".........I know he will kick my ass but so far he liked my idea of "it's-not-a-fragment-of-the-picturescroll-because-I-say-so"-thesis. then I went to the asian food store and bought tofu, moyashi and super spicy kim-chi flavoured soup.............my tongue was burning but at least I felt warm and breathing was ok.
so apart from being sick, crying every once in a while and discussing with ju-chan for the 4580458436th time why I suck at life I don't do much except feeling faaaaaaaaaaaaat and looking up kanji.

oh well......things can only get better.....maybe.....in 50 years

the crazies....I haz it

2010-11-15T12:47:00.003+01:00

but before I will emotionally let my pants down here is something funny ^^

it's from the apokalypse4 blog

and now....I was debating with myself and the voices in my head why there is always drama after a few weeks when I interact with guys and I found several reasons: and YES of course I have to share this with the world....

secretly I am an emu....which means I hate my life at the moment because it's not how I want it to be and therefore I also don't like myself which leads to the fact that I am not capable of having normal relationships
being the whiny emu that I am I don't go out much which prevents me from getting to know new penis....äääh....people....why is that so? well, back to point 1 about hating my life (like still living at mom's place at the age of 28 and lurking around uni for the past 3540543 years)
in an attempt to find social interaction with penis...äääh people....I choose of course the internet....yeeeeeeeeeees, the best place to find guys is online because everyone on the internet is perfect and it's all rainbows and unicorns and true love and whatnot ^^

having no life at the moment provides an excellent basis for hanging around on social networks which leads to religiously checking the inbox for messages every 2 seconds and the nagging voice in my head "omg, if he doesn't write me this very instant 58054 messages per second he is not serious, has several others and doesn't like meeee................. waaaaahhallguysaresameassholesblablagaysexblabla"

so now upon meeting someone it all happened again....the getting to know each other happened via social network and skype.phone calls ensued, text messages throughout the day and all that. of course I loved it...making my little emu heart feel better ;) anyway, after the first meeting my royal emu-ness decided that it's not love at first sight and I declared in full soap opera mode "oooh I don't want you to expect more from me and I will keep my distance and I don't want to use you"........yeah, keeping my distance worked for a total of 3 seconds and of course things went further than they should have gone. to cut a long bravo foto love story short.....I cannot cope with the whole "friends with benefits" stuff even though I know it would never ever work out if it was a full-blown relationship. again....the crazy thing is ...I'm the one who is sure that there are no hardcore loveydovey feelings involved (from my side) but I couldn't keep a neutral distance when the phone calls, messages, sms aka attention ceased.
Yesterday's example: I wanted a hug or/and signs of affection (which of course I didn't tell him...nooo he should read it in my star sign and catch my brainwaves.......because I cannot say exactly what I want ...noooooooooooo, I would have to express my feelings....*insert crazy-ass ranting*)........soooooo when he kept his distance I got all moody and cranky, barely talking to him.yes, it's embarrassing and now the joke is on me because I'm the drama queen...........................................................

blue sky complex

2010-11-14T20:40:00.002+01:00

omg, I knew that my mind is fucked up......but being THAT fucked up is a surprise. I'll be a crazy cat lady soon ^^

change your taste in men ;)

2010-11-10T15:29:00.002+01:00

mr.anaconda who neeeeeever ever wanted to talk to me ever again is back and his mind is as fucked up as ever ^^ didn't take him too long to come back after last time's drama. aaaaand of course the discussion was the same as always and it always makes me think of morrissey's suedehead lyrics ;) I think the universe knows that mr. anaconda still owes me 7567945 onigiri...that's why it always sends him back to me ^^and 8 million japanese gods grabbing their popcorn and enjoying the show.....

kowaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

2010-11-07T19:32:00.002+01:00

yeeees, nina and me never learn ;) we keep on watching horror movies even though they scare us shitless ^^ so after last week's desaster with her final thesis we decided to do what we do best........procrastinate.
sooooooooooo we watched "paranormal activity 2" and got scared pretty good. I had not watched the first part but that didn't really matter since the story was easy to follow. there are a few scenes where actually nothing happens but the sounds and the atmosphere are sooooooooooo scary that i wanted to hide behind my seat. I can deal with as much gore as can be but not with demon noises in dolby surround ;)

anyway...there are a few other movies that I want to watch .......if they ever make it to cinemas here:

you can't even tie your own haggard shoes

2010-11-01T15:03:00.003+01:00

after looking at them for half a year now, I finally bought the t.u.k. granny boots and I loooooooooooooooooooove them ^^ even though the heels are 8cm , I can walk in them and they are comfortable. yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaayyyyy, shooooooooes ^^

fear of love or bitter vanity ^^

2010-10-27T23:37:00.002+02:00

I start getting lazy on posting stuff............oh noes za world needs my brain crap from hell of doom ;) I finally got to meet the razorblade usagi-chan after almost 5458459084 years again a few weeks ago, luring him from the autobahn to my home with gyouza ^____^ sooooo, usagi-chan, if it takes another 2 years to meet you again, I shall visit one of your concerts and throw granny undies on stage , telling everyone that this is your secret fetish and you have to marry me after the 35th butt-call.
oh, and usagi-chan and me finally tasted the wasabi-kitkat!!!! at first it just tastes sweet and then there is a slight nuance of wasabi.........so japanese that it almost hurts,muhahahahahaa.
then I finally managed to get dutch braided classics done before work in the morning but didn't take a picture and when I was in the elevator with an old man he told me "oh you have such nice braids...did you do them by yourself?" awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, it was soooo cute and little narcisstic me was happy ;) nyaaaa....and I found 3 new nasty white hairz again in my hair.....so I really need to dye my roots again.
last weekend I was on prison leave from my life ^^ so I went to erfurt to meet with the oh so big manly brain man in order to get on his nerves and to wreak havoc in his apartment.now he has an infinite amount of curry-paste in his refrigerator.
on saturday I'm going to proof-read ninja's final thesis aaaaaaaaaand hopefully I keep up working on mine ;)

you can't try to walk down two different roads....

2010-10-13T18:40:00.002+02:00

last fm was being nice to me and played papa nez for meeeee ^^ while I was trying to decipher those stupid kanji of strange eras in the 15th century. then I tried to install a copy of kodansha encyclopedia on windows 7 and guess what? yup, doesn't work. oh how I hate it.............why can't this shitty stuff let me install the files in peace???????? did I say I hatez it?
by the way, I bought new gloves today and they were on sale. actually I wanted to buy a muffler but they wanted 30 euros for it sooooooooooooooooooooo I very quickly gave up on the muffler ;)

and theeeeeeeeeeeeeeen.......*drumroll* mr. anaconda wrote to me yesterday.yes he is still alive and driving me insane as always but now I'm finally over it. I had not heard from him since the incident with my credit card and his wow-account but since ju-chan met him in nara and talked to him, he suddenly remembered my existence. part of me was happy to hear from him and the other part just thought "noooo, please not the same shit again". the conversation consisted of the same old stories he always tells me like "I'm so sad because my grandpa died" (yeah, grandpa dies probably 49588457439times a year....I've heard it so many times it's not even funny anymore) and he wanted me to watch spanish doramas with him again. he concluded from me not being with someone now that I am still waiting for him and that we should have "fun" aka sex as soon as I am back in japan o_O then he told me again that he would marry me and asked me to tell him that I love him. the usual blablagaysexblabla -___- what really got me angry was the fact that he was laughing about the whole credit card thing and didn't find it necessary to apologize.and the best thing was when he told me "well, if you really think that I don't give a fuck then ADIOS" and went offline.....................I don't want this drama anymore with the most wagamama person on the planet ^^ soooooooooooo this might be the last story about mr. anaconda ever and I'm not sad about it.

omg ^^

2010-10-11T13:52:00.003+02:00

I have a new cellphone since my russian phone kind of died....at first I really thought it was just the battery that needed replacement but then I found out that the whole phone was not functioning anymore.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....I complained very loudly about it to everyone and the whole wide universe aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand the universe didn't give a shit ^^ but somebody else did................I loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove you forever ;) and now I have my very own pink cell phone ^^ yay!!!

by the way, I can finally do a sock bun ^__^ actually not with a sock but a little bun roll which you can open and close. I found it at a shop last week and had to buy it ;)

aaaaand I like how big the bun gets....I can pretend to have more hair,muhahahahahaa.

Look what I found in my mailbox

2010-10-06T15:15:00.004+02:00

Ju-chan is back from her trip to Nara and sent me a box with looooooooooooots of nice things ^^ and because I have a nasty headache and cannot concentrate on my stupid thesis I thought I'd share a few pics with you ^^

soooooooooooooooooooo......she bought me a sanrio schedule book ^^ she told me she wanted to buy a mamegoma one but they didn't sell it in vivre (awwww...how I miss shopping at vivre department store)

matcha latte powder......I can never never never ever get enough of this stuff ^^

more matcha latte

anybody else knows the matcha cookies from daisou 100yen shop? I looooooooove them and I think those were the first cookies I ever bought at a 100yen shop....soooo if you ever come across uji matcha sand cookies buuuuuuuuuuy them ;)

and nooooooooooooooooooooow kitkat.....kinako kitkat which tastes sooooo good.....and of course matcha kitkat and I probably would sell my soul for it.

Fran is actually pretty much the same as pocky but with a little bit more mousse....and yes as you can see with matcha ;)

matcha milk soft candy ^______^nomnomnomnomnom....need I say anything more?

sooooooooooo and now......WASABI kitkat ^___^ I'm looking forward to eating it. Ju-chan said it tastes strange but good....we will see

uuuuh kitkat for "grown-ups"......dark chocolate ^^

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaand bitter almond with 44% cocoa

I love cheesecake ice cream so cheesecake chocolate is also good ;)

Knorr is everywhere ^^ my students all loved the nasty corn soup but I like pumkin soup better

bunbunbunbunbunbun

2010-10-04T14:01:00.003+02:00

I, the great procrastionator strikez again ;) I was watching instructionals on youtube........on how to make the nautilus bun. I'm still not sure if I got it done correctly but I can live with the result ^^ so far the whole bun is secure and doesn't need any pins to hold it in place....no scrunchie either ^____^
by the way, I watched "the last exorcism" last weekend............................................and it suuuuuuuuuuuuuucked. oh my, that movie sucked donkey balls. ok, so the girl is possessed by the evil spirit from hell of doom but then they come up with all this virgin demon baby pregnancy satanic ritual in the woods o_O wtf????? stupid way to end a movie.

and this is how it looks when I try to do the nautilus bun with the hair fork ^^ in my little world it has the shape of an onigiri (kind of)

I can haz procrastination ;)

2010-10-01T15:08:00.004+02:00

yeeeeees I know the picture and the bun sucks buuuuut actually I wanted to take a photo of my new hair fork (no idea what the correct english term for that is....I iz so smart) . I still have to get used to getting it straight into the bun so the little flower faces upwards ^^
by the way my students wrote me an email......sooooooooooooo cute and they even wrote it in german ^____________^ hehehehe, great teacher onizuka ;)

aaaaaaand I made double chocolate brownies ^^ nomnomnomnomnom

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaair

2010-09-30T13:27:00.002+02:00

as you can see I'm wasting my time with taking pictures instead of studying (what a surprise ^^).....sooooooo this morning before work I thought I give the braided chinese bun a try and it worked out ok and it even survived my working hours ^____^

don't you know that I like watching the puddles gather rain

2010-09-29T16:56:00.003+02:00

I don't know what I did but I made some strange bun ^^ to my surprise it was quite secure and the hair stayed in place.
the haircolor looks strange..........next month I won't use extra red henna stuff..............indigo or sanotint black (depends on my money ^^).
and theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen....I wanted to lighten up my pms-mood a little so I thought I'd buy this little thingy to make sock-buns which you can open and close. I have been looking at those thingies for months now and never bought them sooooooooooooooo of course when I wanted to buy them yesterday they only had them for blond hair -____- za universe really hates me sometimes.

leave-in

2010-09-28T14:34:00.002+02:00

I finally found something that really works for my hair ^^ it can be used as a leave-in or as a conditioner. Actually I bought it by accident because I thought it was shampoo (stupid me ^^) but now I'm quite happy that I bought it anyway. I still have a gazillion of split ends but at least it doesn't feel as dry as it used to be and it even helped to detangle the mess after the d'espairs ray concert last weekend.

knödelhaare

2010-09-14T18:20:00.002+02:00

I can sort of braid ^^ yeah baby yeah....but of course no daylight to take pics...so here are those I took with flash on...

don't write a novel, a shopping list is better

2010-09-09T17:19:00.002+02:00

I got mail from the shiny bureau of tv fees which kind of made me laugh and also angry. the letter which basically said "we can haz your moneys" was addressed to my gmx-account nickname.isn't it oh so nice to have your info stolen and then stupid as they are they don't even hide it that they stole it -____- how can you take this seriously when you get a letter like "dear mrs cräckbert arschheimer, do you pay for your tv?"...............aaaah the universe, it hates me.
my students are back in japan.they all passed the test, some of them were actually really good ^^ one of the guys painted little hearts on his test and another one wrote "oooh you look like a 25 year old woman" ^____^ I had fun correcting the test and I think I don't suck soooo bad at being a language teacher. I was already asked by the international office of our university if I want to give classes again next year. I really want to but technically I will not be a student of this uni next year in august...............maybe I'll just do it anyway.
we had a bye bye party and went to a sushi bar and ate lots of food............I really mean lots.....the whole table was covered in little plates and stuff. my students gave me all their instant ramen that they had brought from japan...so now I have a year supply of miso soup and cup ramen ;) everybody took pictures with me (almost like in japan^^) and I have to admit that I miss them a little bit.

my minions

2010-08-14T17:43:00.002+02:00

I sure do have a lot of catching up to do since the last post was in July -____- soooooooo first of all I went to Wacken festival again this year and it was lots of fun. I met some new people saw alice cooper, motely crue, iron maiden, kamelot, grave digger, arch enemy, slayer, the bosshoss, tarja turunen, w.a.s.p. , cannibal corpse, delain and stratovarius ^_____________^ got almost sqeezed to death at the merchandise booth because 75485743895393 people tried to buy tshirts and of course cannot stand in line just as every other normal human being on earth. iron maiden bruce got on my nerves because he was constantly telling us to buy their new shitty album......and wanted 75euro for a tshirt. from now on all my iron maiden merchandise will be made in china ;)
I bought a dio shirt with the holy diver album cover on it and lots of food (as always).
right after returning home from wacken I had my first class with the japanese students at university.they thought I'm a professor ,muhahahahahahaahahaaaaa. anyway teaching is actually lots of fun and I get to torture them with verbs, adjectives and every other shiny grammar rule of the german language. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand getting paid for it is extra nice ;)

a day late or a dollar short

2010-07-18T14:49:00.004+02:00

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees, I know I should be preparing stuff for my summer school students and I should be working on my thesis and I should be doing something productive but ummm...no.....I have a headache and feel like bääääh. so, as I was listening to 80's hair metal and some early 90's stuff I felt a little bit natsukashii (nostalgia for the past) and I remember sitting in front of the tv in the 80's looking at all those nice men with long hair, thinking eddie was the coolest zombie ever.......but then the nice long haired men disappeared and I made a brief excursion into the world of boybands -____- but anyway....now wacken-festival is only a few weeks away and I can't wait to get there ^________^ I need some eye-candy!!!!!!!!!!!!!
there is a picture of iron maiden bruce that has been stuck in my head since forever....that black leather jacket,jeans and long hair:

while being in Japan everyone always asked me about Helloween....I never knew that everybody was so crazy about them there.you can still find all their songs on every karaoke machine in Japan ^_____^ if I feel like wasting more time I will scan a few pages of Captain Wada's German Metal book which was given to me by one of the sensei at NWU. and even though the vocalist turned into some shiny gibberish talking guy I still like how he looked back in the days ;)

and while looking at half naked men with long hair.....until a few years ago I still had a sticker of Nuno from Extreme ^______^ oh yes bravo magazine in the 90's was fun

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand now.....because "I remember you" is in my head since yesterday and I keep humming the tune constantly........................skid row ^_____^

can somebody please turn back time and make sebastian bach fall madly in love with me? ;)

taking over the world

2010-07-06T14:56:00.002+02:00

...well, almost. The last few 9475947539months of uni are driving me insane.....because they still can't decide on someone to do exams for me. the english literature prof told me he will be retiring and doesn't want to do it and then told me I should just wait for his successor aaaaaaaaaaaaaand they won't let sensei correct my thesis even thought the dean allowed him. oh so shiny o_O
anyway, I got an email from the bureau for international students and they asked me if I would like to teach japanese exchange students german ^^ sooooooooooooooooo I will be a teacher at the university summer school, muhahahahahahahahaahhahahaha and I even get paid ^_____^
what else? nya nothing new...my life is still boring as fuck.

thinking

2010-06-20T21:51:00.002+02:00

I had another argument with my mother the other day and basically she told me I'm an arrogant bitch who doesn't care about others.she told me that I treat people bad because I think I am better than them just because of the fact that I study at university o_O she also told me I will have problems with colleagues at work later in life, so when I told her that I never had any trouble with people at all the jobs I had so far she said that I was just pretending to be nice and of course it is my fault that my ex broke up with me -____- am I really that bad of a person? I know that I let my mother know when she is getting on my nerves and I feel sorry for it but I try not to scream bloody murder at her when she asks me for the 4954359th time how the phone works or that I should drive carefully because we have only one car. I have never given her any reason why she tells me over and over again that we only have one car. I never bumped into anything and I never caused or was involved in an accident. I listen to her lamentations of wanting to die and wanting to commit suicide and I listen to her stories about who died and how the world is such a sad, sad place. I cannot help her with her depression....am I a bad person for wanting to lead my own life without feeling bad when I have a good time? I know I cannot discuss things like that in a logical way with her because she suffers and I know she doesn't say all these things on purpose to hurt me but for fuck's sake it's hard to deal with it every day -___-
she said I never talk to friends of her's on the street or neighbours....but actually she talks to them just to turn around and talk bad about them.why should I talk about useless things like "uuuh this guy always drinks too much" with our neighbours who don't give a shit about anything anyways......is me being silent a sign of arrogance??? I have never been very talkative around people who I don't really know.
it's the same with men....is it arrogance when I want someone who is at least a little bit literate, fluent in english and doesn't think the meaning of life is drinking when having problems???? probably ^^ because otherwise I wouldn't be single, right?

nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......I need to get out of this town

ain't no turning back

2010-06-16T13:33:00.003+02:00

phew....2 days late on za period and I already saw myself having to talk to the ex penis about splitting the bill for abortion o_O buuuuuuuuuut today the mumu of doom greeted me with raging cramps so everything's fine.I'm back on my pain killers...business as usual.
as I am always a little late on discovering bands I just recently found out about "the parlor mob" ^____________^ I like them and I want to marry all of them ....well, maybe not the one with short hair...but the other ones I want, muhahahahaaha.take a look:

my wisdom teeth decided to start growing again....it suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucks and it hurts.I haz an autschn.
talking about autschn...I watched the new "nightmare on elm street" last weekend and I don't like the new freddy -____- I want robert englund back!!!!!!!!!!!!! the facial features of the new actor just don't do it for me ;)

raise a little hell

2010-06-10T16:07:00.002+02:00

I just listened to the new iron maiden song "el dorado".....hm, not really my cup of tea o_O it's not that the song sucks donkey balls but bruce sounds kind of bored while singing it.also, it's not (to my ears) as catchy as other songs of the band. by the way, if you have time then check out "axis of awesome" on youtube DO IT ^____^ they are funny.
today the woman at the asian food store asked me what I am going to cook with the rice I'm about to buy.I was a little confused and told her that I will boil it in water aaaaaaaaaaaaaand she proceeded to tell me "but is sushi riiiiiiiice" -___- yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees I know....for the 768945764954789th time I KNOW.so I told her that I am very well aware of that fact and that I indeed buy this rice knowing full well that you can use it to make sushi.
metalocalypse is making its way into german tv but of course as a dubbed version.I want to watch the 3rd season in english T____T I still have some coconut milk left from today's lunch.I made curry but instead of using yogurt as always I used coconut milk.I kind of want to put the rest of the milk in my hair...together with some honeysuckle conditioner.
random post is random^^

here comes another one

2010-06-08T19:24:00.003+02:00

I know nobody wants to hear about my hair ;) soooooooooo I have something else to show you. you should all be very glad that you can't hear me screaming those lyrics ^_____^ it's jaron and the long road to love !! and if the title and the first few lines seem to be part of a cheesy love song....they're NOT ^_____^ listen to the lyrics then think of any ex asshole and pray for him or her ;)

review drölfzig

2010-06-08T13:15:00.002+02:00

yesterday I used j.a.y. desert herb shampoo and my hair seems to like it much better than rosa mosqueta and also the smell is muuuuuuuuuch better. at first I thought it would make my hair as dry as the other shampoo so I used lots of water with it but my hair of doom turned out really soft and had a nice shine ^_________^

by the way, I met a good friend from high school again ^^ we hadn't talked for a while since she went to england and ummm I was just staring into empty space ;) I had lots of fun meeting her again this weekend being able to share a few memories from 76459867459 years ago.

oh and I saw "the crazies" at the cinema.I was a little afraid that the remake of a romero movie would suck but surprisingly it didn't. it was very entertaining ^^

review

2010-06-06T16:33:00.000+02:00

I admit it...I couldn't stop myself from ordering ^^ but I only spent 6euro and shipping was for free.at first I have is to say that aubrey organics is very fast with sending stuff.I ordered wednesday night and got the stuff friday morning.I got rosa mosqueta shampoo and conditioner, honeysuckle rose shampoo and conditioner and j.a.y. desert herb shampoo.
the rosa mosqueta shampoo was the first one I tried and its smell killed me ;) it smells like 4711 perfume on a 100year old grandma -___- unfortunately the smell stays for hours which is not very pleasant. it's also hard to work it into the hair and despite the fact that it should preserve the hair color it made my henna bleed from my hair. even though it cleaned my hair thoroughly it left my hair very dry...my bangs were standing after rinsing o_O I guess this shampoo is just not for me.

more hair

2010-06-03T20:53:00.002+02:00

I haven't tried to put my hair into a chinese bun for a while so I thought I'd give it a try.....it's funny how big it looks ^____^ actually the size of it made my day because after brushing my hair today I lost loooooooooooooots of hair :(
then I wanted to try the figure 8 bun and it looks tiny -_______- I don't know what I did wrong but it feels horribly uncomfortable and the stick is too long which makes it even more uncomfortable but at least now I know how to do it ^___^

henna

2010-05-29T20:46:00.004+02:00

so I used henna and indigo and it didn't turn out green ^___^ the picture was taken when my hair was still wet but it dyed my hair just like I wanted.the roots are still a little red and everything else is darker. I hope I can convince mooooom of doom to let me do another indigo-session next week because she was not amused about the mess in the bathroom even though I really really really tried not to leave stains anywhere.
I let them dry for a while now and took another picture:

hairy hairy lady ^^

2010-05-28T17:42:00.003+02:00

I had enough time this morning to braid and put the hairpins in.I decided to just put one of each in it to see how it looks and I really liked it (and then I was too lazy to put the other ones in ^^)
then I went to the organic food store and -thank the heavens above- they had henna in store.so I bought 2 boxes of red henna and 1 box of indigo.....keeping my fingers crossed that it won't turn out green on some strands.what I'm aiming for is either dark red, dark brown or just red....I'm sick of the color it is now and if chemical dye wouldn't lead to massive loss of hair I'd be off to the bathroom and put it on my head in no time ;) aaaaaaaand if everything goes well with the indigo stuff then I will probably use indigo only for some time in the future.

long afloat on shipless oceans

2010-05-26T15:36:00.003+02:00

I admit it...I had to do some shopping after the last few days.so after I went to uni yesterday (by train and bus) I had some time to kill and looked for the vintage-retro-pin up-rockabilly-shop in town and finally found it ^_____^ it's a tiny shop and most of the dresses are quite expensive but I couldn't leave without buying something....so I could keep myself from buying clothes or shoes but I HAD to buy those hair pins because they just fit my mood (at least one pair of them) and here they are:

rainbow in the dark

2010-05-24T22:00:00.002+02:00

we should have broken up much earlier because it makes me work on my stuff from uni ^___^ I finished 15 written pages for english literature over the last few days. he wrote me an email today to wish me luck and all the best....I didn't even bother to answer.part of me wanted to tell him that he needs all the luck in the world with his small penis but I didn't.I'm such a nice person, right? ;)
anyway, as you can see I present you my new hairstyle which I learned from the internet.....and my hair in all its oily and dandruff-y glory.this is how it looks when I don't wash for 2 days and drown it in coconut oil. so the hairstyle is pretty easy...just do a french braid (not too tight) then pin the end of the braid on the top of your head and secure with hairpins.

write your loveletters on rice paper, at least you'll feed the poor

2010-05-23T14:33:00.003+02:00

I have a 7th sense when it comes to breaking up ( the 6th sense is for detecting food and toilets). I have had my doubts about the seriousness of this relationship and I told myself it's because he works so much and it's a long distance and I probably have too high expectations but I was right all the way. I told him he shouldn't treat me like I was just some vagina he occasionally fucks and talks to on the phone but he always kept telling me "no, it's not like that.you know I have issues with talking about my feelings and I have a difficult character" and of course stupid me thought "ok, with a little understanding from both sides we can work this out" but after the last few weeks I felt that something is seriously wrong. if you tell your girlfriend you cannot talk to her because you are busy with going to hospital and caring for your dad but then have all the time in the world to visit a flirt-website on a daily basis, the girlfriend might get suspicious.am I wrong? I'm tired of those "yeeees, we are soooo in love, can we fuck now? oh and don't bother calling because you just get on my nerves"....that's not what I call a healthy relationship. last night I told him my point of view and all the stuff that is bothering me, still thinking maaaaaaybe it will make a difference but this morning he wrote me an email saying that he was reconsidering his feelings towards me and that he thinks he cannot give me what I want and that it would be better to just stay friends. I am sad, of course, but mainly I'm angry at myself for wasting time with someone who just pretended to love me.I hate when guys do that......and I hate it even more when I play along...anyone knows the kate nash song? "my fingertips are holding onto the cracks in our foundation and I know that I should let go but I can't."

und scheiß auf freunde bleiben ^________^

down too long in the midnight sea

2010-05-22T23:45:00.004+02:00

no, I haven't abandoned this blog, I just didn't feel like writing anything. the last bit of uni is getting more and more stressful and it doesn't really help when you have sensei that tortures your soul to the core ;) actually, it's good because I work much harder when teachers tend to beat my lazy ass (nooooo....I'm not a sm-fan) but every counselling lesson in his office turns into an almost nervous breakdown ^____^ I had a nice 28th birthday with a "death by chocolate"-cake, gyouza and even more chocolate........and edible penis :)
I had to stop taking my contraceptive pills because I got pain in my left lower leg up to the point where I couldn't walk straight anymore.had to go to the doctor's,get an ultrasonic examination and give myself shots of blood-thinners everyday for a week to prevent any kind of thrombosis.sucked major ass. on top of that the significant other's dad is still in hospital and things look pretty bad.....doctors give him only a few weeks.
and as nasty as it sounds, now I just have to get away for a bit...so I decided to blog. I got some nice coconut oil from lissy which I have been using almost everyday now and my split ends seem to really like it. I also got some almond/lemon- cream which makes my hair really soft but as it contains glycerin I can't use it as often as I would like since my conditioner also contains glycerin and an overdose of glycerin dries out the hair. I would love to try out the heymountain products but I don't want to spend that much money at the moment. I still haven't decided what to do with my haircolor....chemical dye makes me bald, indigo makes my hair greenish, henna fades too soon into ugly reddish brown.at the moment my hair looks like this:
a little frizzy because I wore it in a bun at work...as you can see 74593749 colors and soooooooo thin at the ends hiding inside the bun. I really like the braided bun but it still looks so tiny. I want a big old head-eating bun ^___^ and the coconut oil makes it look a little more healthy and shiny.

queen of bongo ;)

2010-04-21T18:02:00.003+02:00

I'm having fun with my cupcake skin stuff from lush ^___^ I was bored while I was waiting for it to dry a little so I decided to take a pic and scare you all with my oh so priti face ;) anyway I have to say I really really really like the scent of it...I always have to keep myself from trying to eat it. my skin actually really got better but after using cupcake and fresh farmacy (which I got for free) now regularly my skin is quite dry, so I decided to use cupcake only once in a while.but the sad thing is that the best before date will expire soon and I don't want to throw it away (I don't want to freeze it since it has been open for a while now) so I guess I have to put more of it on my face next time ^^. oh, and I finally found matcha which tastes just like it should and it wasn't even THAT expensive. it has a nice green shade and isn't bitter at all, so I don't have to put huge amounts of honey in my matcha latte, muhahahahhaha and I can pretend I sit in the starbucks on dotonbori in osaka ^____^

learn from my fail

2010-04-14T17:44:00.002+02:00

I really fail at life....don't go and get your tetanus shot when you already feel a cold coming.otherwise you will end up in bed with slight fever -___- on sunday evening I already had sore muscles and was quite tired but I didn't pay much attention to it since I had spent the weekend at the significant other's place ^^ on monday morning I still felt quite tired and my nose felt like i had snorted chlorine or something.stupid as I am I went to get my shot and by late afternoon I was shivering under 2 blankets in my bed.my bloodpressure went down to 85/40 and my temperature up to 38,5..................I felt soooooooooooooooooooo great.not. ^____^
anyway, I bought a new pair of jeans......one size smaller than my usual size and found out that I could have easily fit in the next smaller size also(after washing them)......I think from now on I will only buy s.Oliver jeans, muhahahahahaha I can pretend to weight 45794589kilo less.
sooooooooooooooooo now I will sit here and drink tea against my sore throat and pee myself to death.

microsoft...your penis shall fall off

2010-04-03T18:58:00.004+02:00

I have a perfectly working original cd of "microsoft word" with product key and all.....but for some reason it doesn't work on windows 7.my trial version of student office was over so it wouldn't let me work on my thesis.panic!!!!! since student office was still installed my version of word didn't work....at all....not in compatibility mode or any other mode and even when I uninstalled all parts of word, works and bla nothing happened.I hate microsoft.....what for do I pay for you shitty programmes when I can't even use them??? now I have open office and it works just fine.
anyway....I really really really have to become a hairdresser ;) I dyed my hair by myself again and will never ever let anyone else near my hair except friends of mine......I really don't know what kind of shit they put on my hair.....but now I used some cheap-ass color that contains less toxic stuff than the usual hairdresser dye (ok, still enough chemicals to kill a gazillion of fish in the sea ^^) and it dyed my hair completely black.

this time while on the pill from hell of doom everything works ok...no nasty headache and no extra kilos so far buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut.....oh my god my skin.....it looks like I'm 12 again and puberty has hit me with an iron fist.I have always had bad skin but now I really have all this stuff growing.it isn't even funny anymore. so now I bought some healing earth stuff from alverde and hope that it makes my skin less nasty.

when will I learn....

2010-03-30T20:08:00.002+02:00

since the woman at the organic food shop told me "we will get henna back in 2 weeks" 6 weeks ago and they still don't have henna , I decided that I wanted to change my hair back to black. well, stupid me thought "ok, let's go to back to the shop where my favourite hair dresser works again after having a baby" (she had dyed my hair before so I never thought it would turn out that bad). I went there on friday to ask if they would dye my hair on monday. no problem so far.it would have been nice if they had already told me that they don't have enough hair dye in stock but noooooooooo......big secret.on monday I told them also again that my hair had been dyed with henna in january and that they should dye it black.the color she put on my hair was blue-black because no black in store........................................................well.......now.......I have swamp-vomit-poo-green strands of hair, blue-black roots and reddish strands in between.greeaaaat. and the best was when she tried to brush my WET hair with a plastic brush telling me that my hair is oh so damaged.I wanted to jump into her face.at least I didn't have to pay everything and she told me to come back next week. what have I learned???? never ever go to any hairdresser ever again in my whole life for hair dye. today I went to buy a new color where you add jojoba oil to the color mix and I will put it on my hair myself tomorrow.
punishment for stupidity, I haz it!

how to train your dragon

2010-03-27T21:33:00.003+01:00

in germany the movie is called Drachenzähmen leicht gemacht and when I saw the trailer for the first time I already knew I was sooooo going to see that movie.yesterday lissy and me made a trip to the cinema and finally watched it ^____^ it's such a cute and funny movie, I highly recommend you to watch it ;) I was searching on youtube for a bit to find some of the scenes I really liked...and even found some. it felt quite good just get away from everything and sit there and laugh since my mom decided to drive me crazy again during the last few weeks.no, I will not bore you with all the things she does...but anyway...our flat looked quite chaotic because we repapered the walls in our kitchen and it took a while to get everything back in place again.just when I thought things will be getting less bad the significant other's dad has to undergo chemotherapy again.and among all this I'm still fighting with my thesis...oh well, at least spring is here and I don't freeze my ass off during work.

needles and pins

2010-03-16T22:02:00.002+01:00

I look like a junkie...once again ^-^ got my blood checked and for the first time in 7656897495 years everything's ok...no diabetes,no colesterol, no iron deficiency buuuuuuuuuuuut even though they pinched me with an extra small needle I got a nasty bruise from it and it huuuuuuuuurt like hell.I took a picture of it with my cellphone.I have to see if you can see it in all its bäääääääääääh through the pixels ;) and then because I'm too stupid to keep track of my vaccines I have to retake all tetanus shots...., I almost couldn't move my arm after 2 days.it was swollen and hurt pretty bad when I moved my arm.I even went back to ask the doctor if it was normal.she told me it's always like that.great.I can't wait for the next shot in april -___- theeeeeen I decided to visit my gynecologist to check if the shiny antibiotics did any harm to my mumu and she gave me another set of contraceptive pills (for free by the way).she asked me if I wanted the nuva ring buuuuuuut I don't really want to have something sitting down between which might pop out if I decide to rape the significant other ;)

I'm a little dinosaur

2010-03-05T14:43:00.002+01:00

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh....I found at least 5 white hairs on my head.....completely white o_O almost 4 cm long and parts of it carrot orange coloured because of the henna I use.at least now I know that they take on the henna if my shiny head decides to grow more of them ;)
I had 30 minutes to kill during work today so I went to my favourite shop...DM.....and bought....things ^___^ bought some organic make up (but the color doesn't match....to light...guess I'll just use it as foundation), oil capsules for the face but I use it for my hair.so far the hair seems to like it.I recently tried to cut my own hair.well, I found out it can be pretty hard to try and stand behind oneself ;) but actually it turned out quite ok and I cut it almost straight across.think I'll do it before wacken once more to get rid of the nasty split ends.I wanted to buy henna but of course the organic food store is out of the brand I use.......they told me "well, all the employees also use it, we have to order it again".now while I'm trying to eat more healthy things I bought organic vegetarian bolognese sauce....nomnomnomnomnomnom, my new favourite food next to gyouza and mapotofu ^_______^ and then I made matcha cake and eated it ;)

born to raise hell

2010-03-02T21:52:00.003+01:00

today was the day of ohrwürmer from hell of doom ;) I guess eddie here must have decided to take over the radiowaves......this picture by the way is the first thing I see in the morning when I wake up on my back at the significant other's place.yes dj eddie from radio hell and his cute heart-shaped tongue greet me everytime ^___^ but anyway...I woke up to meat loaf and "you took the words right out of my mouth" and had breakfast to beautiful south's "don't marry her" (uncensored version...muhahahahahhahaa), then in the afternoon a friend on msn reminded me of another beautiful south song...good as gold (but stupid as mud) which was stuck in my head aaaaaaaaaaand last but not least now it's motörhead's born to raise hell ^^
by the way my ear is getting better and my hearing is almost back to normal (which means still baaad) and finally the sun came out for a while ,noooooooooooo rain and nooooooooooo snow.how about turning the global warming up to 25°C now please? ;)

I want this bed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111111111!1!!1!1!!!1

baibaiki

2010-02-26T23:25:00.002+01:00

I took out the piercing on my lip ^___^ I kind of got tired of it...at first I thought maybe changing the jewellery would do but now I decided to take it out completely.

run to the hills

2010-02-24T16:35:00.002+01:00

...I'm back.at least I could get my lazy ass going for 5 seconds.my shitload of work is piling up on my desk........and it will get more on may 31st.yes finally the end of uni is getting nearer.I will be done completely by the end of the year.....hopefully.....oh god dear lord baby jesus please have mercy on my academic career ;) yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees, I wanted to be done with uni by summer but I got additional time for my thesis and I can help my mom with her job (even though it sucks to be stuck in this town of arsch for a couple of months longer) to keep her busy.otherwise I have to listen to her "I want to die"-lamentations every 2 seconds if she has nothing to do.
anyway....I'm still recovering from the last nasty cold.my eardrum still has fun with water inside my ear which means I'm hard of hearing on my left ear.soooooooooooo if you meet me kindly talk to my right ear please ^__^ at least my nose stopped running and the cough is gone also.I was eating antibiotics like m&m's....the only good thing about being sick was that I could binge eat without gaining weight ^______________^

hurra, hurra die pest ist da

2010-02-06T13:22:00.002+01:00

thanks to my oh so wonderfully not working immune system I feel the next cold coming.my mom had a cold for the last few days and of course I got infected....great....really, really great.I hate winter.I freezed my ass of at a funeral at some godforsaken cemetary somewhere in the countryside last week because my mother's friend's daughter in law died of cancer......which of course also didn't really help in getting better.I really tried to write a few pages of my thesis but the outcome was not really something that I could in any way present to my prof.so I got nothing done this week except sleeping in the afternoon and going shopping. yeeeeees.....shopping...useless things that I actually don't need.a new pair of jeans (which turned out to be too big after washing), a new cardigan and new boots.steelcap ranger boots in black and one size smaller than my old ones....and they fit perfectly. so when I feel miserable the significant other has to suffer too ;) so I made him go shoe shopping with me.during his holiday in los angeles he bought me an ac/dc shirt saying "dirty deeds done dirt cheap"....he said he had to think of me when he saw it.isn't he romantic ;) we watched sherlock holmes...nyaaaaa, ok movie but a little loooooooooooong and probably more funny if you watch it in english and holmes is sooooooooooooooooooooo gay for watson it hurts ^_____^

cräääck

2010-01-20T18:29:00.002+01:00

yes, I went to the doctor's on monday aaaand was diagnosed with severe inflammation of the sinuses.so now the amount of happy pills for me to swallow would make any addict jealous ;) at least now it's getting better and I feel a little less like a zombie.

oh so healthy

2010-01-17T16:03:00.002+01:00

I admit defeat....after half a week of feeling miserable I decided to go to the doctor tomorrow.....my sinuses are killing me, making my wisdom tooth and half of my face hurt like hell.I can sleep for 15 hours and be sleepy again 2 hours after I woke up....I don't smell or taste anything and ooooh the green things that come out of my nose...aliens from outer space.now I took those lovely pills against flu that contain 67548967459 kilo of caffeine to not spend my entire day in bed.
oh by the way...did anybody see the new dimmu burger commercial? the guy playing squash was my boss ^_____^

squeeeeeee

2010-01-09T17:17:00.005+01:00

yesterday when I was aimlessly stumbling through the intrawebs I found this ultra-cute little anime called chi's sweet home........cuteness overload, I tell you.it kind of reminds me of ebichu without the gore and sex ;) the little kitty gets seperated from her mom and meets a little boy and his family.they keep her and name her chi because she pees on everything in the first few episodes ^___^
each episode is not longer than 5 minutes with a total of about 104 episodes.I didn't check it but I read somewhere that there is another season being shown on japanese tv.
aaaaaah it's sooooooooooooooooooooooo cute.

2010

2010-01-05T17:08:00.002+01:00

I can't believe that this blog will be 5 years old in july o_O and I will be 28 this year.......I feel old ;)
anyway, I celebrated new year's eve with my kloetenrock family at caro's house.ate lots of food, drank lots of tea, and some alcohol, watched some very nice fireworks without having to pay for it ^__^ and prayed to all available gods that this year will be better than last year.it seems that the new year started out quite ok.met with the significant other for 2 days and ate even more.......diet for wacken....nya, probably not ;) yeah we finally bought tickets for wacken again.I have a festival to look forward to aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand iron maiden, slayer and alice cooper will be playing.i has a happy.as I said, 2010 isn't so bad so far.now the only thing I have to conquer is my constant urge to scream at my mom.we had quite an argument when I told her I'll be going to munich over the holidays (and I really, really needed to get away) because now she keeps on making me feel guilty.I know she doesn't do it out of spite but it drives me nuts when she announces "my daughter doesn't care about me" or "I could kill myself and you wouldn't notice" just to get some kind of reaction from me.the thing is, the more she does this , the more I just want to move out.i mean i wanted to move out ever since i came back from japan but since I can't pay for university and a room i have no choice.anyway ....I was thinking about why my mom's behaviour is annoying me so much (apart from her oh so shiny accusations) and i think it has something to do with the fact that the positions within our family shifted.for all those years my parents were the ones i could rely on or fall back on when something went wrong, but now this is changing and my mom starts to rely on me which makes me realize that I finally need to grow up.I can has therapy now? ;)

getting there

2009-12-28T21:49:00.002+01:00

finally...finally my internet works on the new laptop ^____^ and the best thing is that now I have w-lan ,so no stupid cable and I can even use it in other rooms too.yay for that.

gives you hell

2009-12-20T21:03:00.002+01:00

my car broke down AGAIN.....I hate this car....a lot.this time the battery died on thursday night right before lissy and me wanted to drive to the cinema.the good thing was I had already parked the car and it didn't die somewhere in the middle of the street and it's just the battery and nothing more complicated.anyway, complicated enough because I have no idea how to change a car's battery.since there was nothing we could do we went to the cinema with lissy's car and watched Avatar in 3-D.I liked the movie but oh my ass hurt after 3 hours and those 3-D glasses were quite uncomfortable.but still it's a nice movie.

never thought I would say this...

2009-12-17T16:33:00.002+01:00

....but actually I feel a little sad that I have to give my dimmu burger clothes back.I mean they are ugly and not very comfortable but I think I will really miss working there. on my last day we had complete chaos and hordes of customers ( busses full of children)...they all ordered so much that we were out of buns for the burgers.lots of zombie customers who didn't know what they were ordering and then blaming me for the high price even though I charged them with the special offer for the set menue -____- my last hour at dimmu burger consisted of sorting out garbage and cleaning the toilet (did I mention that last week when I cleaned the toilet someone actually took a shit BESIDES the toilet and not IN it).then I got a bye-bye card from everybody which said "when are you coming back?", hugged everyone and then went home.
windows 7 is still not letting me use the internet on my notebook.......may your penis fall off...to whoever programmed this shit.
anyway, iron maiden are probably going to tour next year again here in germany (they will be playing in wacken...which has been officially announced already) and I really hope we get tickets for one of their shows somewhere around here.festivals used to be lots of fun but a) are we getting too old for this and b) is it too expensive.now don't come telling me "yeah but no but yeah but no but yeah it's not expensive when you think of how many bands you will see".... I know that but still going to just one concert is far more relaxing than spending one week in a tent trying to not strangle your asshole neighbor who will set the whole camping area on fire.

this too shall pass

2009-12-13T21:52:00.002+01:00

since the last post sucked donkey balls I decided to get this shiny blog of mine going again with less weird brain vomit. last friday was supposed to be my last day at dimmu burger. my boss came to me and told me if I ever need a job again I can just visit the dimmu burger store without even having to apply.he would take me back any time. sooooooooooo, I guess I wasn't that bad at selling dimmu burger coffee and stuff.I got some chocolate and when I thought I was done they asked me if I can work again tuesday.....now december 15th will be my last day at work there.at least I can eat stuff for free and get millions of those monopoly coupons :) if you ever want to see me wearing my dimmu burger uniform once again you should come by between 10a.m. and 6p.m.
writing my thesis on a notebook with the screen not working was annoying as hell so finally I bought a new one....this year's x-mas present by the way.but of course the new laptop has one biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig problem called windows 7.........can someone please make microsoft burn down in a hole filled with fire?shiny thing won't connect to the internet for dear life....no idea why.but at least I can write my thesis on it in peace.
metalocalypse season 3 is now out finally and I watched the first few episodes and loved it.....hamburger time!!!!!(I laughed my ass off at hamburger time) and dr.rockzo is back still doing cocaaaaiiiiiiiine ^___^ I was thinking of buying the episodes on dvd but to quote skwisgaar: "it's so expensives that it makes me horny"
and I'm watching little britain on youtube.....ting tong the thai ladyboy and vicky pollard...yeah but no but yeah but no but yeah but no

by the way, anybody wanting to go watch zombieland with me?

self-righteousness

2009-12-10T17:09:00.002+01:00

I need to vent my misery.......self-conceited asshole that I am.I just wish that I could move far away from everything, the town, the people, the small rest of my family. I can't stand it anymore that people unknown to me come up to me and tell me how sorry they are about the loss of my dad and that I have to take care of my mom now.yes, I know that my mom is not feeling well but I can't be close to her 24hours a day.....I'll eventually lose my mind.she is clinging to me and everytime I go out on my own she starts to cry making me have a guilty conscience for leaving her.but I really can't stand being around her at the moment all day.we just grieve differently...she plasters the walls with pictures of my dad and I can't stand looking at them right now....she wants to visit the cemetary almost every day and I don't want to go near this place....she needed someone to help her with her job...I had to quit my job to help her, which leads to spending even more time with her.working at dimmu burger wasn't always nice but at least I was away for most of the day...now I have to cope with her from the moment I get up until she goes to bed. I know it sounds horrible and I know I should be more understanding but I just can't..............I really want to scream at her when we have to get paperwork done like insurance, tax, bank account and she simply just doesn't listen to what the people tell her and her is excuse is always "oooh my husband always did these things, I'm so helpless". I hear it almost every day. Example: My dad had some insurance that included me while being somewhere out of the country.So we had to cancel it.My mom didn't even look at which insurance company it was and walked straight into an office of a completely different insurance company. upon asking her "mom, shouldn't we go to a different office?" she told me that this branch is part of an old office at my dad's workplace. what kind of logic is that???? ok, so of course the people there tell us to contact the insurance company that is written on the contract and what does my mom do? wanders off to another completely different insurance company. then I told her "moooooooooom, stop it, didn't you listen to what the man said?" and she replies "be nice to me , you know I'm helpless"........................................... things like this make me almost lose my temper.I always try to be understanding and not act like a total asshole but ooooh it's hard.

worst month ever

2009-11-22T14:34:00.002+01:00

this is really the shittiest month ever....my car broke down while I was out doing grocery shopping and stopping by at the video rental shop.it was cold, it was raining and the electric generator of my car decided to stop functioning.so I called the guys from the garage where I bought it and they were kind enough to drive me and the significant other home.well, he had to sit in the back with no seats and lots of mechanical stuff but at least we got home.then our washing maschine played some tricks on us....it worked completely normal when the guy who wanted to fix it was there....the next morning it stopped during washing.great.now it only works when you choose the 30°C program.our phone decides not to ring every now and then even if there is no one already talking on the phone.then the answering machine starts off and people get freaked out since there is still my dad's voice on the tape. my mom's car needed to get tyres for winter but we found out the we only had 2 left so we had to get 2 other tyres and when we thought we finally made it, they told us that there were no screws for the tyres so I had to search through the cellars to find them......thank god the box had "tyre screws" written on it otherwise I'd probably still be down there with my flashlight. but the best thing happened last night when I tried to flush the toilet and it almost flooded the whole bathroom.at least I was able to fix it with a piece of wire....maybe I have a career in bathroom facilities ;)

...

2009-11-12T09:41:00.001+01:00

he died at 7:25 this morning

fragile things

2009-11-10T20:03:00.002+01:00

on saturday my dad collapsed at home with cardiac arrest.he was reanimated by neighbours until the ambulance came but when they arrived the heart wasn't beating.then reanimation led to a very faint heartbeat and he was taken to hospital.I was at work during that time so I can only guess what happened or how it happened.our neighbours called my workplace and they let me go to the hospital.after talking to several doctors at the intensive care unit we were allowed to see him....he was not conscious, several ribs were broken from reanimation, he got pneumonia and fever and they found out that the muscle of the heart is swollen.....doctors couldn't tell us for sure what happened so we where told to sit and wait.today we were informed that the brain suffered a great deal of damage due to lack of oxygen and that there is only a very small chance that he will wake up again.they already asked us if they should keep him alive at all costs.....we denied.I know it sounds terrible but he always told us he doesn't want to be kept alive like this so we decided to let him go if his condition deteriorates.

hell is a fable?

2009-11-03T21:07:00.002+01:00

til experience change thy mind ^___^ I feel like some vampires ran me over...why? well, not taking the pill leads to bleeding.....which is not a smart move when you just had your period.so now I'm almost constantly bleeding for 2 weeks.at least the nasty head-ache is gone.got my blood-pressure checked and it was too low (I was surprised that with my fat ass this is actually possible) and my skin is returning to its more or less normal state of bäääh.
anyway this blog seems to be about my vagina only lately ;) see how interesting my life is? work at dimmu burger is quite ok these days. we got 98% during the dimmu burger franchise inspection. I just hope that the dimmu burger inspector won't show up a 2nd time during my shift because he keeps asking about regulations and best before dates and I really can't memorize all these dates even if I wanted to.I was glad that I was able to work a little more than usual this month because I really really really really need money.
yesterday my mom dyed my hair but the color didn't turn out the way I wanted .....it turned out to be not as dark as I had expected...I hope the color fades out fast.oh and my bangs accidentaly now look like petty paige's ^___^cut them a little too short last night.
the significant other is also busy working 14hours a day.....it suuuuuuuuuuuuucks....all we can do is talk on the phone for 5 minutes every day.

the minor fall,the major lift

2009-10-29T16:32:00.002+01:00

my venture into oral contraceptives ends today....I have a constant headache, my skin looks ultrahorrible and I feel like someone pumped me up (despite losing some weight due to the cold). my greatest fear is that the headache comes from high blood-pressure, so I'd rather bleed until kingdome come than take more of these pills.
anyway...I got mail from ju-chan today ^____^lots of matcha...matcha cookies, matcha kitkat, matcha latte powder, plum soda kitkat, ginger ale kitkat and a little monokuro boo piggy.

coold

2009-10-25T19:57:00.002+01:00

I have a cold....a bad one....a my-nose-is-going-to-fall-off-and-my-lungs-will-explode-cold.I did quite well at hiding it at work since working at the drive-in is pretty much separated from the others.but after working next to an open window for 9 hours was enough to make me feel quite miserable the next day.and of course I'm bleeding to death....so why am I taking pills to make the bleedingt less,when all it does is make it worse???? yesterday I could just sit on the toilet and watch it stream out. (yes, you may get nightmares now)
anyway, working at the drive-in isn't so bad....at least when the customers know what they want.some of course don't know what they want or simply want you to read their mind.my all time favourite is "I want the los wochos " or "I want the mcwrap" (-->actually the customer wanted something totally different and no wrap at all). aaaand some customers just refuse to use their brain like "soooo I want 2 coffees and a burger" ...when I tell them that they can order this as a menue they look at me and tell me "noooo I want exactly what I ordered" so I keep explaining to them that this is cheaper than what they ordered and that they will get their friggin' coffee and burger anyway.still they insist on not getting the menue. some people are oh so smart.
last sunday I drove my little car for the very last time.....I did cry.....a lot.....I saw it on tuesday for the very last time and cried some more and when I saw the "new" car I almost cried in front of the guy who sold it to me.the new car is so butt-ugly and huuuuuge and umm....did I mention ugly? yeah, I know , I should be happy that I found a cheap car but in my little world this car sucks....I know that my old car's heating was crappy and that using the steering wheel sucked a lot and getting in and out was not comforable and that the new car has better heating and airbags but oooooooooooooh how I want my baby back :(

auaaaa

2009-10-19T14:30:00.002+02:00

oh my everything hurts ;) my neck hurts... a lot.....and my back hurts...a lot....but actually I'm feeling fine.on thursday I went to munich since the significant other had a day off.walking around town was cancelled since it was snowing (snow in october....where is the fucking global warming??).then we watched a movie called "männerherzen" which turned out to be quite funny.I got a huuuuge warm chocolate cake with strawberry-cheesecake ice-cream and lasagna...nomnomnomnomnom.on friday we did a little klöten-meeting and had some coffee and juice.on saturday I wanted to go downtown in order to buy a new concert-wallet because my old one broke into several pieces but it was raining like shit so I stayed indoors watching he-man on dvd.in the late afternoon I went to martina's place and from there we went by car to the concert hall.I will never ever understand why it is so hard for german people to line up and walk through doors without pushing.why, oh why does it take almost 2 hours to get 500 people into a hall????? anyway I had a great time at the mucc live ^____^ jumping, head-banging and being ultra sweaty after that.I had never heard the new album before and actually never listened to anything else since the last mucc concert in 2006 but it the songs were great and tatsuro's voice is very nice.
after the concert caro and me walked to the train station and had to watch the stupid visu kiddies entering the train......yeah so hard for them to enter a train........oooh the stupidity ^^ when I came back home I took a shower and got a nice big bowl of ramen ^_______^ after the significant other went to work on sunday I packed up my stuff and went to catch my train back home.the ride home was ok but my neck hurt like hell.

burger queen

2009-10-11T17:37:00.002+02:00

wooohooooooo, my contract is now until january ^___^ when I walked into dimmu burger this week for another 10hour shift my boss told me that he has to talk to me.at his office he told me that he would like to keep me at dimmu burger and that he already renewed my contract and if I was ok with that I could sign it.yay, so now I still have a little bit of money every month ^^ and then I was even allowed to teach some stuff to a new colleague............sooooo one day I'll own my very own dimmu burger plus host club ;)

yesterday I met with nina after a looooooooooong time and we went card board box shopping since she already has to move again because her room-mate wants another girl to share the flat with her so they more or less kicked nina out.after that we had lunch at the shopping mall with surprisingly good shrimps and veggies.

oh by the way....the significant other bought the he-man dvd box ^____^ and after a bit of searching through the net I found out that the he-man toys have been re-issued.......they look a little bit different now but still very cool.unfortunately the special collectors edition for $20 is already sold out :(

moments ago but seconds away

2009-10-07T21:17:00.002+02:00

a few days ago I found this wonderful picture of iron maiden bruce and just had to snatch it from the gallery it was in because it's just so pretty.the look on his face is exactly like mine these days. what happened? well, first of all the TÜV is not going to renew my car's inspection...that means....it's withering to death until november 1st.actually the inspection would be due this month but the mechanic told me I can drive without it until november 1st without having to pay any fees if the police catches me anywhere. so after a lot of crying and whining I am slowly getting over it but boy this is going to suck when I have to give it away T___T I know it's old and rusty and whatnot but it's such a nice car...my caaaaaar........I don't want another car but I do need one since I don't want to be stuck here without the possibility of just driving off.anyway, I have to see if my dimmu burger boss is going to renew my contract or not.....if not......I have to sell my vagina.
which brings me to a new topic......my vagina ^___^ since my vagina doctor retired last year I had to search for a new one since my painkillers are almost used up which makes an addict like me quite nervous.so today I had an appointment with grand mistress vagina-know-it-all- doctor K. .....I didn't have to wait at all in the waiting room ( I was used to waiting up to 3 hours at my old doctor's) and she is a very nice and funny person.so we talked about my vagina ;) aaaaaand of course I told her that I need painkillers....a lot....looooots of them......many, many many painkillers....guess what her solution was? yes....she suggested that I should try using the pill.I'm still a little bit unsure of that but I agreed to it especially now that the significant other is ummmmm available for doing things down between ;) so at the end of this month I'll start taking it and pray to all shinto gods and any other gods that I won't gain 20kilo because of it o_O
after the real world invading my little world I bought hair scissors and cut my bangs....it surprisingly works well and I can cut my spliss of doom when I feel bored.

arukenai kedo odoreru yo

2009-09-28T19:36:00.002+02:00

I am utterly jealous.....why?....Ju-chan went to Japan today aaaaaand she will be staying in Nara for some time T-T I wanna go too and kick mr.anaconda's ass.oh well......anyway, staying here is also not so bad since the significant other spoils me rotten ;) (even though he tells me that I shouldn't get used to it ^^) maybe he just took pity on me because I was bleeding to death when I visited him last time.........yeah, oh so sexy when you feel your tampon going plopp ^____^ yes, I know all of you want to know about this and have nightmares about my tampons.to prepare him for what was to happen I just told him "so honey do you know that scene in the shining when all this blood comes out of the elevator?" and ummm I guess he got the idea. so this time he was introduced to my misery from hell of doom...the elevator was broken and I had to gracefully climb the stairs to his apartment (and you know how graceful I am), I took even more painkillers than ever before, I had to pee every 5 seconds, and I went into full tamagochi mode (play with me, feed me, love me) but he endured it and made me the best lasagna and salad of all time.
oh by the way I cleaned my room...a lot....a whole lot.......I even threw away some stuff that I brought from japan o_O old clothes, calendars, stupid little toys aaaaaaand I even cleared out my bookshelves and rearranged my books.my room even looks tidy now.
yesterday I had to work the 10 hour shift and the zombie customers seemed endless....but the little old asian lady that gave us instant ramen as a present made my day ^^ she is so cute and always comes to dimmu burger on weekends.